ADHD memes

Emotional dysregulation and maladaptive coping mechanisms.

Have a productive day? Stop lying to yourself mate.

Legit, I'm going to positive vent, so anyone not okay with that, please do scroll on past.

I'm not diagnosed, and likely never will be because it would be another hoop to jump through when disability already does plenty. But the last couple of years make it pretty damn obvious to me that I'm in the add category to some degree or another. It explains too many things.

So, this meme really hits home for me. A lot of shit that made life hard for me is on that image.

Despite that, the last week I have somehow managed to get my insomniac, beaten and battered ass up at the ass crack of dawn, go out into the world and handle shit that took hours for each task.

Now, I had put those tasks off for a while, though one of them was not my fault in full as far as how long it got put off; it was a DMV trip, and I put it off so long because I was checking every bloody day in the hope an appointment would open up and I wouldn't have to be in line for five hours.

So, obviously, I ended up in line for five hours. An hour and a half of that was on my feet, with my back in spasm, but unable to take pain meds or muscle relaxers because I'm not fool enough to pop pills in line at the DMV

But i didn't leave! I didn't put it off again.

But, most important is that not only did I manage to get myself up as early as it was, but I didn't even find reasons to delay leaving. When you're fucking with anxieties, add, agoraphobia (particularly when dealing with crowds of people), and chronic pain, that's a fucking victory in my book.

I didn't even punch anybody! Which, that may not seem like a big deal, but you didn't have someone cut in line in front of you while you were bent over gagging and trying not to vomit from pain. I can get a wee bit irrational in extremis, so not doing anything at all was a victory in my book.

Plus, it's the DMV right? Staff are stressed, people in line are stressed. That's just how it is. People weren't being nasty to each other. Nobody pulled any entitled bullshit, and there were a couple of people that we all passed up the line so they could get done faster because they were worse off than anyone else there for a three hour wait after the almost two hour wait just to get inside.

Everyone was cracking jokes, being supportive as hell, just generally being kind to each other. Yeah, there were grumbles too, but those grumbles were about the staff needing more help, better funding to help improve both staff and customer conditions, that kind of thing. Nobody said a snide word to or about the staff at all!

So, I'm in pain this entire time, dripping with sweat from southern summer heat and the pain/stress. But my fellow human beings made it bearable. Me and this one lady were chatting about nothing important just to be humans to each other, and that was happening all around.

After a while, everyone that would get to go in the back to handle what they were there for would get a cheer, and that folks leaving got applause. Yeah, it was mostly for the humor of it, but there were people smiling in the DMV because of it.

My number gets called, and I break into the chorus of "we are the champions" as I hobble up to the door. Got a good laugh too. On my way out of the building, I thanked the group for being awesome and then hobbled my way to my car as fast as possible. Which isn't very fast, but still.

So, what was going to be a nightmare experience ended up being bad on a physical level for sure, but I'll be damned if it wasn't a positive mental health day in spite of that, largely because people remembered to treat each other well.

Which takes several tangents away from add/adhd, but the fact that I managed to beat that into submission twice in a week is a minor miracle

How are you watching me right now?!

I should eat first…