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I am going to be upfront and say I'm kinda just looking for a sense of reassurance here. Guilty as charged. But if you feel I have failed or am not a good person in some respect, I do not want anyone to lie.

I have heard this phrase "adult child" a lot. I hear it in reference to adults who refuse to grow up or take responsibility. I am 33, and turn 34 next week. And I have worried about this label applying to me because I still feel like I'm trying to wrap my miond about what being an adult is all about.

As I said I am 33. I still live at home. I get along very well with my parents, and being here helps them out tremendously when it comes to taking care of my mentally handicapped brother. I work, pay for everything I have (including car, phone, insurance, etc,) and help out with projects around the house.

That said, talking to others is a nightmare. I sound articulate here because I can stop and think through everything as much as I want before typing it out. But if you saw me in person you would pick up on a number of mannerisms and a difficulty getting words out. I believe some people may think I have a sort of intellectual disabilty or am suffering from cognitive decline. And none of this i became fully self aware of until my late 20's. I don't really have an adult understanding of the world, if that makes any kind of sense.

If you asked me "Are you ashamed to be living at home?" I guess it would depend on what you meant. When I'm alone, and no one is around to potentially judge me, I don't feel any shame. But I know that people frown on adults living at home, and so it would make me feel really awkward for that to be brought up with another adult.

Muy cousins, aunts, and uncles are all well-to-do. They own businesses. Multiple properties. Huge cirlces of friends. Maybe not all of them, but there is a lot of money in my extended family. And then theres me. I won't be anything most people would consider special. I'm just here until I'm not here.

There's the added fact that I do like video games, and watching youtube a lot on things I like. The image of an adult at home engaging in these things looks really bad to some people.

And I see youtube videos sometimes of police arresting adults living at home who have done some really awful things. And I'm not sure why, but I feel this weird second-hand guilt from it. Almost like there is something inside me that's gross or evil that just hasn't had the right conditions to show itself. I think to myself "Is that me? I really hope that isn't me. I don't want to be like that."

I don't want much in life. I don't want a lot of money. I tend to reject the hustle and bustle. I just want to know I was the best person I could be with what I had available.

Hi all. Lemmy tends to be rather lefty, so I am not afraid to say that my politics lands on the left as far as US politics goes. So my uncertainty isn’t between left and right, but where I fall on the left.

Since around 2017 I have considered myself a liberal of some form. But I have to confess I did not start really doing a deep dive into politics until this current administration. And I have felt conflicted. I try to listen to different commentators. I’ve listened to Destiny, Hasan, Vaush, and various other people. All as reconnaisance - so to speak - and none of them because I necessarily subscribe to with any real confidence. I’m just trying to hear different perspectives.

If someone mentions something about some policy that was passed some time ago, or mention some political figure I’m not sure I’ve heard of, I go look in to it.

I thought this would help me settle on a solid political stance, but I think it has just caused me more confusion and uncertainty. How do you all do it?

We used to have several more people. Right now it’s 3 players and a DM. The DM is my cousin, and our rule right now is if one person can’t make it, the whole thing is called off. They really don’t want to just have 2 players, which I can understand.

This has been the only group I’ve ever played DnD with, but I’m not enjoying it at all. Part of it is the DM’s style, and part of it is another player.

I feel like I can’t do anything as a paladin without being yanked away from it. My first few sessions literally any time I tried to cast something, this other player told me I really shouldn’t. They’re so terrified I’m going to run out of spell slots. I never have.

At a certain point I just started doing nothing but regular attacking. That’s it. Just sessions on end of attacking as a paladin and nothing else without any complaints. I’m bored out of my mind.

I’m still a new player and I’m just trying to enjoy the game. But Any time I try to cast something, I’m being told not to, or given like a 5 minute thesis on how ” actually Bless isn’t as useful as this other thing, but hey if you WANT to use bless I don’t GUESS it would hurt…”

Also the DMs themes just don’t relate to me at all. The best way I can describe the game is like some mix of analog horror, SCP, and the backrooms. We never ever just meet some bandit or goblin. It’s always some unexplainable entity that the DM must use esoteric language to describe. It’ll be some object or being that is cognitively distressing to witness yet impossible to comprehend. And I’m having to roleplay a reaction to it?

Not to mention the crunchiness of the campaign is just wearisome to me. Our last campaign we spent an hour and a half just going over inventory, crafting, quest progress, and stats. All above the table; never in character.

It’s just such a boring campaign to me with a player that’s about to make me rip my hair out. But it’s also my cousin’s game, and I’m fairly certain it will have to disband - at least for a long while - if I leave.

Using lemmy.zip.

I have gone in through my web browser to change my display name, but my name remains the same both in the web browser and on the app when I post.

Am I missing something?

I want to have a wizard, Druid, sorcerer and warlock in my party.

My “tav” will be a female dark urge who will seek to romance Gale.

I know Gale will be my wizard. I won’t use Halsin but for a few instances. And I won’t pick up wyll at all.

My party is going to be Gale, Laezel, and Astarion. I’m thinking Laezel will be a sorcerer and Astarion a Warlock. That’ll make my Tav the Druid. I’ll have Shadowheart who I’ll make a Wizard, and I’ll most likely just use her for certain story beats.

I’ll be super squishy, though. What would be some tips on surviving? What would some good feats be?

I am currently using Lemmy.zip through the app voyager.

I can also see content from other places like hexbear and fedinsfw.

If I login to lemmy.zip on a desktop I can use my voyager credentials. But I am only able to view lemmy.world and nothing else here.

If I login to fedinsfw on desktop I can seemingly access a multitude of places such as I can on voyager, including lemmy.zip.

I’m sorry if this is such a dumb thing to get confused about. I’ve heard explanation for what all this is, but I’m still just not quite sure I understand.

Got banned for rule 3.

I’ll stay vague here for the sake of not giving TMI, but I will answer questions about specifics if needed.

I was on a NSFW sub dedicated to famous people in the industry. I shared some images there of some of these people as it’s pretty much the whole point of the sub.

Everything I shared was commercially produced, and legally available for free. These were not random individuals. These were some of the most well known people as far as this goes. Their faces show up in memes on SFW subs.

There is possibly one exception to this however, and I think this may be the reason I was banned. I was under the impression one of them was well seated in the commercial industry. But I’m thinking, actually, they mostly do content through social media and OF. Still, this person pop up everywhere on reddit from people who are definitely not her.

The message I got did not specify, but this is my best guess why I got banned. I did appeal, and it was rejected. Part of me thinks it’s something else. But I have no idea what it would be.

On one hand I’m kinda miffed that I was banned for posting popular adult actresses on a subreddit that was made for posting popular adult actresses.

On the other hand I’m not sure how bad I should feel about this.