Serial Experiments Lain

■Lda029 (10A-14)

I don’t have anything to write today either.

#lain

■Lda028 (10A-13)

I’m really upset with Kyoko-chan. When I went to the laboratory, I thought
we were going together, but she had already left with Mayu-chan. That’s
bad, I really hated that. It was by accident, you have to apologize, is what
she said. She starting to hate me, I’m sure of it.

I really hate this.

#lain

■Lda027 (10A-12)

Have I ever hated Kyoko-chan? Are Tomo-kun’s cards not coming? That’s…

I think I might have gotten upset with Kyoko-chan. What’s the best thing
to do? I’ve been flustered, and I forgot to buy the stationery.

God, please, somehow, let me make up with Kyoko-chan. If it’s only me
that’s special, if he thinks about me just a little, I’d be happy.

Tomo-kun, thank you.

#lain

■Lda026 (10A-11)

Tomorrow when I return to school, I’m going to treat Kyoko-chan to my
thank-you cake for lending me her notes. It’s also been a long time since
we’ve gone down the street as a pair.

Shopping on the way home from school was really not great, though. But if
everyone was doing it, I might occasionally, too. That’s what I’ll do, unless
I haven’t gotten my allowance from Mother. And also if I don’t have to buy
something for Mother and Father.

#lain

■Lda025 (10A-3)

But, Tomo-kun has to be writing to everyone in class, doesn’t he? If only I
was special, that wouldn’t be the case.

#lain

■Lda024 (10A-2)

I’m happy. A letter came from Tomo-kun. He said that he was well, and
though he only wrote a few sentences, I’m glad that his letters are only
multiplying. He had gone really far away, and now he can’t see my face. Up
until now, he’d looked at me.

These letters from Tomo-kun make me really happy! I haven’t written a
response. I think I’ll buy new stationery tomorrow.

#lain

■Lda023 (9A-18)

When I compare notes, it’s just like looking at a toybox. I laughed at the
likenesses of Kamiya-sensei’s face.

Whenever I showed my mother, she said, “Don’t do such stupid things, or
you might fall completely behind! Please, study.”

She was a changed person from last week.

#lain

■Lda022 (9A-17)

It’s been a while since I’ve been to school. Surprisingly, no-one seems to be
worried. I’m worried and I feel like I’ve lost them. But it was nice being
normal.

I told Kyoko-chan how grateful I am for her lending me her notes. But
Kyoko-chan’s notes were full of doodles, so it was a bit fun to read.

#lain

■Lda021 (9A-9)

I heard that boys like girls with large breasts, but for what purpose? I
wanted to try to listen more, but I was really embarrassed

#lain

■Lda020 (9A-8)

Today is Sunday. Out of gratitude to my mother for nursing me, I acted as
a replacement for her and did the cooking and the laundry. My meal was a
bit of a blunder, but I think I did the laundry correctly.

My father forced down my burnt omelet for me. My father is really nice. But,
for him to send around a video of the meal was bad manners, in my opinion.

At any rate, I think my father’s pants size might have increased. My shirt
size is the same. I wonder if Mother’s bra size is the same.

#lain

■Lda019 (9A-0)

What? Tomo-kun moved schools. Not to mention how surprised I was when
Tomo-kun and my teacher came to see me when I was sick.

I was embarrassed to be in my pajamas, so I wouldn’t show them my face
for a little bit. I think Tomo-kun might have been worried about me. But I’m
probably wrong.

I reluctantly started to talk to my teacher. Because of that, Tomo-kun and
I didn’t talk. But, when we finished our last handshake, I was a bit happy,
and sad, and it seemed like my tears were beginning to spill out.

I never said goodbye properly.

I hate this.

#lain

■Lda018 (9A-7)

Mother has been constantly trying to nurse me back to health, so I’m
happy. Somehow, the mood has singularly occupied my mother. She also made
afternoon tea at my request. Today she was especially nice.
Thank you, Mother. I’m sorry for making you worry.

#lain

■Lda017 (9A-6)

My cold still hasn’t gone away. Even though it’s been almost a week. Even
though I’ve been patiently taking proper medicine. I’d hate it if I had to
see the doctor again.

Is this really an ordinary cold…? I’m sweating from this fever. I have to
change again.

Even though I want to go to school, I can’t go to school.

Inconvenient body.
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#lain

■Lda016 (8A-23)

I’m happy. Kyoko-chan, Mayu-chan and some others came to see me while I
was sick. It’s great that they don’t hate me after all. They were actually
really worried about me! I want to get better soon and go back to school.
I want to invite them to have some cake as thanks for letting me have
their notes. But I wonder if they’d accept…

#lain

■Lda015 (8A-22)

I have a fever from a cold, so I’m staying home again today. I’ve been out
sick for three days. Surely, won’t everybody at school think I’m pretending?
Not only that, but nobody’s come for me. I hate this.

#lain

■Lda014 (8A-21)

Lately, Kyoko-chan hasn’t been talking to me very much. Is it my mood? But,
it seems like she’s going shopping and doing stuff with Mayu-chan and other
girls. Does she hate me? It seems like she’s having more fun with them than
when she was with me.

I don’t want to go to school again. But I hate being scolded.

#lain

■Lda013 (8A-14)

Today, Father bought me a computer.

“When you’re sick from school, you should get correspondence education with
this. I’m telling you, you should study properly. You should pass your tests
with flying colors.”

I’m worried about taking correspondence education alone; it’s really lonely.

#lain

■Lda012 (8A-13)

Quite some time has already passed, surely, I think, but I’m still not used
to it. I’m starting to not want to have dreams like this anymore.

I want to be normal.

#lain

■Lda011 (8A-12)

I don’t want to write in my diary anymore. Today, something happened, a
situation that could be called exceptional. I don’t want to think about it
again. It might remind me of “that” kind of me.

#lain

■Lda010 (8A-6)

In this place, I can’t see anything. Perhaps I’m cured? If that’s the case,
then I’m really happy. I wonder if Father and Mother and Touko-san will be
happy for me, too.

#lain

■Lda009 (8A-5)

Father has been coming home unusually early. Since he’s heard about all
sorts of things at school, my father’s starting to dislike me. My mother
has started to not complain too much about it. I’m worried. Since I’ve been
acting weird, he’s been fussing over me.

I feel wretched.

#lain

■Lda007 (8A-3)

Today, in phys. ed., I was embarrassed by a lewd story. Kyoko-chan and
some others smirked at me when they came over to talk, so some of the
boys were in high spirits. Tomo-kun is also a boy, so I when think about
how he was probably also making noise with them, I feel uncomfortable. Even
now, I still can’t believe it.

Will I ever be able to naturally understand them?

#lain

■Lda006 (7A-9)

It’s okay to be me, right?

#lain

■Lda005 (7A-18)

I’m really upset and sad, so I don’t want to go to school. I get gossiped
about. Is it my fault that they say those depressing things? I’m really
upset. I’ve been crying. I can’t be made to smile brightly right now.

I’m jealous of Kyoko-chan.

If this comes out, everybody will hate me even more, won’t they? Even
though I’m not hurting anyone, I’m still suffering.

I wonder if Tomo-kun was laughing at me, too.

#lain

■Lda004 (7A-10)

Touko-san said I shouldn’t worry and some other stuff like that, but I
know I’m really weird. It’s not that dream or anything like that. It’s
because I look like I just woke up.

I’m really strange.

#lain