To be honest, I’ve never had a problem with them, but I am not autistic. My former friends hate autistic people and I don’t want to be the guy who does that. I wanna accept all differences 💕

i think of how an abusive bully might see a dog and how it’s comparable to how they see me. weak, submissive, “stupid”, loves the person no matter what and obedient till the end.

to them, at least, i’ll always be seen as stupid for my kindness. a (r-slur) less than human.

a child mentally much younger than 18 despite acting my age and functioning as someone my age.

i have ptsd and some of her behavior triggers it. not only is part of my trauma being repeatedly discriminated against but shes repeatedly done this for years after i formed a bond and later a trauma bond with her.

no more chances. i hate her. she doesn’t deserve an ounce of my forgiveness or love or empathy. she refuses to change. she abused me for years.

i hope she suffers from guilt or consequences for years.

my friends tell me stuff like: “No, you can’t be friends with these people!”

when i ask why, they say it’s because they hate me secretly and don’t want me around because i have autism.

when they’re actually being nice to me, then they say “oh yeah, they’re only being nice to you because they pity you. they want to feel good about themselves so they’re nice to the ‘(r-word)’ kid in special ed”.

and it makes me wonder if it’s because they’re looking out for me and they’re either very negative, being truthful and everyone really does see me as “less than human” and are only nice because im autistic, or they’re being mean.

[DO NOT READ IF YOU’RE SENSITIVE TO DISCRIMINATION, EMOTIONAL ABUSE/BULLYING, OR TO START AN ARGUMENT. I JUST NEEDED TO RANT.]

my friend for 4 years is someone who i had to cut contact with. they’ve completely discarded me, perhaps before i cut contact altogether and won’t even look nor talk to me.

they are definitely something else, and i should probably feel good about that but it kind of hurts. part of the reason why seems to be because i’m an autistic woman, as she makes fun of autistic people and views them as lesser despite using autism as an excuse to be “stimmy”.

she also used to do the “don’t leave me for these other people! they don’t understand you like i do” thing. for years she convinced me that most everyone is ableist and evil and that i would never be good enough.

she convinced me it’s normal to treat people badly when you wanted to “mold” them into the person you wanted them to be, and it wasn’t until sometime last year that i realized this behavior was harmful.

she started treating my childhood friend badly too, and i had enough and we both cut off contact with her.

she, as of now, only talks to and hangs out with men and completely ignores women unless she wants a favour from them.

she also only hangs out with straight women because not only are they dating/hanging out with/romantically involved with “cool guys”, but they’re less likely to be “obsessed with her”. (last year, she didn’t hang out with lesbians because she thought they all were attracted to her and “lesbians aren’t my type”.)

her views are a shame because i’m autistic and a lesbian who somehow had feelings for her in the first year or so i met her.

she has some sort of pyramid, where straight men are at the top and autistic people are at the bottom, even worse if they’re autistic women because women are “dramatic b*tches”

now, rather than being mean towards women (specifically autistic women like me) she doesn’t even talk to them, which i guess is improvement, but i needed to rant.

[3 different thumbnails given to you randomly. All have words in yellow text. One says “explaining ableist language” another has “intro to ableist language” and one says “what is ableist language?”. They are all next to the disabled pride flag and on a digital art wooden background with a grey table in the bottom left corner]

these people i know complain that they barely have any friends and that they’re considered “the weird kids” yet bully other neurodivergent people for that reason.

as someone with autism + adhd, this just makes me so sad.

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