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Hi,

It's my first time posting here, but I'm a longtime lurker from my now-abandoned lemmy.world account. So, here's goes...

I've been feeling kind of stuck in my life, and wanted to see if any comrades had experienced anything similar or know folks who have. My main difficulty is that I only realized and accepted that I'm bi after my wife was pregnant. This is a problem for me because my wife is strictly monogamous. When we last discussed things, she flat out said that she couldn't accept me being with anyone else, even if the relationship was strictly sexual.

And I'm torn here. On the one hand, I love my wife very deeply and absolutely don't want to lose her. We've been together more than ten years, and she's the most amazing person I've ever met. On the other hand, I have this nagging feeling that a big part of me is going unexplored and undeveloped, to the point I find myself inexplicably mad at my wife sometimes - I guess because I blame her for not "letting" me explore this other side of me.

And about feeling stuck, I know I need to tell her how important this is to me, and to ask again if there's any way at all we can deal with it together. But when we've discussed it previously, multiple times, I dealt with it poorly and hurt her very badly. I just don't know if she can take another round of the same damn thing, and I'm very reluctant to try and have it turn out badly yet again.

Again, I'd especially appreciate hearing from folks who've been through similar situations, or at least know people who have.

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[–] AutomatedPossum@hexbear.net 34 points 1 year ago (7 children)

You can't talk people who aren't down for that kind of thing into ethical nonmonogamy. That just doesn't work. Trying it repeatedly is already bad enough, don't go for another round of this.

I also think the whole "i would keep other relationships entirely sexual" thing would be a really bad start. A lot of poly people consider it a red flag when somebody wants to date them under that kind of premise, knowing that they're intended as a side gig to a serious relationship. What if they develop feelings for you? What if you develop feelings for them?

Also, the idea that bi people "need to explore" and can't be in a monogamous relationship is a really shitty biphobic stereotype, honestly makes this entire post come off as a poorly thought out troll. You do not have to sleep with every gender you're attracted to to understand your sexuality.

[–] bicuriousButters@hexbear.net 5 points 1 year ago (6 children)

Thanks for this, it means a lot. I also have felt like there's no talking her into any kind of ethical nonmonogamy. If she was open to it at all, she would have said so before, right? Revisiting the topic will only open old wounds.

That said, I still don't know what to do with the feelings I have. I've been attracted to others in the past, sometimes very strongly, and it will probably happen again. And not acting on those feelings at all (or not even expressing them) feels like I'm suppressing that part of myself. That's what I think I'm really struggling with.

[–] eight@hexbear.net 14 points 1 year ago (1 children)

how do you feel and what do you do with your emotions when you're attracted to women who aren't your wife? what you do there should translate exactly to what you do with how you feel about attractive men

bonus though, if your wife is into it, you can talk to each other about what you find attractive in men. that's also if you're okay with her talking about being attracted to men who aren't you which I assume you'd be open to given your stance on non-monogamy.

[–] bicuriousButters@hexbear.net 3 points 1 year ago (1 children)

how do you feel and what do you do with your emotions when you're attracted to women who aren't your wife?

I acknowledge the feelings, but often feel frustrated that I can't act on them. I unfortunately had very little sexual experience with other women before my wife.

bonus though, if your wife is into it, you can talk to each other about what you find attractive in men.

this is a bit of a tricky one for us...she's fine telling me when she thinks other guys are cute or hot, but only because she's never been strongly attracted to anyone else...whereas if I mention finding a guy cute, the next question would be "do you want to sleep with them?", and any answer other than "no, not at all" will end up hurting her.

[–] Bartsbigbugbag@lemmy.ml 4 points 1 year ago (1 children)

It’s weird that they’d ask, but it would be kinda weird for you to say, “yes”, also. Just because I find people attractive doesn’t mean I want to sleep with them. I don’t want to sleep with anyone but my girlfriend. Maybe monogamy isn’t for you?

[–] brainw0rms@hexbear.net 9 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago) (1 children)

I don't think it would be weird or unfair for her to ask that... OP introduced the insecurity by bringing up several times that he does in fact want to sleep with dudes that he finds attractive.

[–] Bartsbigbugbag@lemmy.ml 3 points 1 year ago

That’s a great point I hadn’t considered.

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