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i've come to the realization that i enjoy nothing in my life

i play video games but i hate them and get bored and or frustrated very quickly

i'm in college but i hate all my classes and do the absolute bare minimum needed to pass

i spent most of my time on here reddit or 4chan and all of them suck

everything i do i do just to kill time until it's time for me to go to sleep, but i don't even enjoy that because the vast majority of my dreams are bad

i like weighting myself everyday and would be bothered if i didn't do it in a morning

i mean i've been eating roughly that amount per day for about 2 and a half weeks now so i think it can be pretty sustainable

i scrolled through my steam game list to find something to play, got interested in one and redownloaded it, by the time it was done i'd lost interest and now i don't want to play it anymore

summer always reminds me of the fact that i'm an empty shell of a person and without some responsibility like college to constantly worry over i have nothing in my life and no idea how to pass the time

holy fucking shit I royally fucked up shaving today and got covered in little tiny cuts all over my chin neck and jawline FUCK

i am so bad at this shit

does waxing fucking up laser? i'm not on laser and won't be for a while but i don't want to make life harder for me later, but i need a better short term way of getting rid of this shit

why? what's wrong with not liking those things?

yes and this is something i'd never apply to anyone else but myself but i don't think i'll ever be in a wlw relationship because of it

oh i know it's all bullshit but it doesn't need to make sense for it to fuel my self-hatred