So, I'm dealing with lots of anxiety lately. About money, the future, hitting rock bottom, whatever. But the thing is, I'm not in a position to be anxious about these things. I have a decent paying job with an unlimited contract. I have an appartment, a loving gf, I'm healthy and even if shit hits the fan, my family would happily help me.
Still, I get like panic attacks when I think about some stuff. The fear of my car breaking down, for example, makes me feel like dying, despite being able to buy a new one without problems.
My anxiety feels misplaced. When I walk to my job (because even that's a luxury I have), I walk past homeless people sleeping on porches, I walk past addicts shooting up etc. and I think ti myself: 'they are so much worse off, What do I worry about?'.
Years ago I was trapped in a life of crime with very little perspective, and even then I didn't feel anxious. Now that I have monumentally changed my life around, I worry. It makes no sense to me.
Has anyone else felt this way before? Or ar you still having issues like this? How did/do you deal with it?
Thank you for the tips I will keep them in mind.
I am re-reading theory because I am going to be a writer on the new party programme we will use for the upcoming elections. To be able to do this, I want to have a fresher understanding of Marxism again and I figured I will read (some) of the reading list that is posted here. In the past I never made notes of marxist literature and I will probably do it now. I finished reading Lenin's The Three Sources and Three Component Parts of Marxism just now and, despite it being a pretty easy work, I'm pleased with what I wrote down. I wanted to start with Marx' and Engels': Critique Of The German Ideology, Chapter I but as soon as I saw Hegel and Feuerbach mentioned, my brain made the windows shutdown noise and I figured it was time for bed lol.