Nikki

holiday/boulevard of broken dreams by green day

-i dont feel any weirdness calling myself a lesbian, trans women are women after all. this stigma fades after enough time to let it become normal

-im not diagnosed but pretty sure lol, not a position id give advice from though

-assuming your parents arent helicopter patents and invading your privacy, feminine undergarments are good outlets for this. i used to wear cheap sports bras (the ones with no padding, just the fabric/elastic) under my shirt. compression underwear (gaffe) or just womens underwear in general are nice too

shaving your body is a good way as well, and if you are allowed to grow out your hair then styling that in some way (even if its just a ponytail or bun) is nice

-still in my hometown

-couldnt see a therapist not because of my parents (money and priorities) for a long time, but i dealt with my mental health struggles through online gaming and friend groups. sorta brute forcing myself to be confident, and keeping in mind that it gets better. therapy helps though, even if slowly with how good i am at masking

swapnote girl is adorable and always stuck with me

gave up on the game when they decided to block linux users from playing (the game runs fine on steam deck through proton though :/)

disappointed that i cant play, an open world dress up game is such a fun idea

parents understand and support me

siblings (that im in contact with) support me, others i lost contact for other reasons before coming out

grandparents love me but genuinely dont understand trans people at a fundamental level, i still need to explain a lot to them

generally everyone ive come out to are supportive, everyone i havent dont even recognize me or think im one of my sisters so whatever lol

Unfortunately to a lot of right wing people ive talked to im just "one of the good ones", which obviously is meaningless when theyre trying to erase our existence.

Some folks are swayed by just being around a real queer person with feelings and emotions though, instead of just being a statistic to bash on the tv screen

lol you're the second person to relate me to her, thanks :3

it was cheese, crackers, pepperoni, and pop tarts

green day all day rn, my girlfriend got me their entire discography and ive been loving it. saviors is an amazing album on top of their classics

i play funky flame runner or daisy mach bike cuz im a sweatlord lol, she uses peach on the dolphin dasher since shes new and its a friendly combo

if you exhale before the sneeze comes out it makes it cute for some reason

"im gonna be pretty?"