German text translates to:
so.
Do I now fit better under the transfeminine category?
Or am I still do hard to interpret?
lets hope dis gets me somewhere...
wish me luck. ill need it in 14.5 hours (EDIT: thad is 15:00 UTC)
~this~ ~time~ ~i~ ~uploaded~ ~it~ ~to~ ~catbox~ ~immediately!~ ~no~ ~space~ ~taken~ ~on~ ~the~ ~blahaj~ ~servers,~ ~and~ ~fxomt~ ~gets~ ~to~ ~see~ ~it~ ~too!~
EDIT: a peep wantd to hear whads goin on, so i went oh yis why nt share ~
so here we go, brand new lore gettin handed our for free
here the lil story ~
- i startd doin therapy ovr half yea ago
- first session therapist said "many peeps com here n jus wait til they get hrt"
- second session i said som vrri ew adult wrords: "i rlli hate how my legsies look, always wear long pants now"
- therapist lik "dun say such evil, selfdeprecatn adult wrords!"
- afterwards i used vrri vrri vrri soft language to describ my feelins (evn tho i usually alrdi do that a lot) like
- "im nt quite sur bout gendr bt meh, is nt so importnt"
- "i feels kindsa uncomfs bt is fine ~"
- "theres nt mch holdin me alive rn besides mothr, frens n dum bs who-givs-a-smol-poop ai project. so im safe!"
- apparntli she didn realize i was sain im ... lik - rlli sad.
- my other kinda-therapist told me thad she thinks that actual-therapist doesn seem to undrstnd me n wantd to call
- she did! turns out, actual-therapist truly didn get any of thad. i was softenin things too mch 🛌 🍼 💖 :mamakisseslilone: :mamaputsliltobed:
- today is new therapy session since... over two months (evil holidays n othr stuff preventd stff)
- after call, kinda-therapist told me thad actual-therapist believes increasin sessino frequence is gud idea to weekly...
so yea!
i feel i hav to rlli lik - put my feelins out somehow so im goin with a literature type, cuz i did slideshows too oftn alrdi (not with her, bt with other peeps)
imma call it
"die 'slideshows sind langweilig, deshalb mache ich seitensammlung' seitensammlung"
which translates to
"the 'slideshows r boring, thads why im mekin a page-collection' page-collection"
to... bring things across frfr dis time while:
- bein truthful
- not overexaggeratin bt also VRRI mch not underexaggeratin
- not bein self-deprecatin too mch
- not bein manipulative
- not bein too weird
- bein somewhat entertainin (so therapist enjoys time at least a lil bt..)
i tend to always undershare when it coms to bad or sad stuffs bout myself. bt dis time, NO! i hav written things down!!!! i cn jus hold myself to it like a script!
worst case, i realize im sugar-coatin again, n jus giv her the page collection <3
this way, i try n be easy to read n understand, while also not seemin genuinely insane (i hav a fear.. thad she thinks i genuinli need lik - mor in-depth kindsa therapy.... with lik ... feel-gud-drugs n stuff... i dun wan thad. thad feels lik cheatin, also i kno thad all my happiness is fake, so it becoms worthless)
tldr
i feel a need to signify clearly to my therapist thad i am transfem. she still somehow thinks im jus gay, evn tho i told her, thad currntli im not, n i duno why she keeps bringin thad possibiliti up... lik - am i thad hard to read?!?
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahh