applebusch

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But romantic tension is one of my kinks. Furtive glances, longing gazes held a moment too long, a feeling of joy being close and holding her attention, yearning for more, terrified to take the next step, yet slowly sliding closer together, me inching closer then her in turn, hands touch and fingers intertwine. Ecstasy.

[–] applebusch@lemmy.blahaj.zone 15 points 2 days ago (2 children)

This is such a smooth brain take. Imagine being narrow minded and arrogant enough to believe there are no new experiences outside of those you've lived. No one in the history of human existence can truthfully claim that.

Let's start with abolishing church and see where it takes us.

Giant cat, the size of a grizzly bear, but somehow with the proportions of a chubby house cat. It's primary prey is mega rich humans. Continuous exposure to greed in such humans lends their flesh an exquisite and deeply savory scent and flavor that the cat can smell from hundreds of km away. Like all cats they take pleasure in toying with their prey, refining their technique and cunning by repeatedly capturing billionaires, then letting them just barely escape, only to hunt and catch them again, until the thrill of the hunt or hunger overcomes them, or their toy succumbs to the chase. Friend to the destitute, the homeless, the impoverished, and all the proletariat. The cat is gentle and loving to all who respect it and want not for the fruits of others labor.

Let's be honest, the couch does most of the work.

Best I can do is $10 and guarantee to love him forever

[–] applebusch@lemmy.blahaj.zone 8 points 3 days ago (2 children)

Please let it be real...

[–] applebusch@lemmy.blahaj.zone 4 points 3 days ago (1 children)

Do queens worship themselves?

[–] applebusch@lemmy.blahaj.zone 3 points 3 days ago (1 children)

Audhdansbian then

[–] applebusch@lemmy.blahaj.zone 6 points 3 days ago (1 children)

If thinking isn't owning then having the exact same ideal body isn't stealing. Yo ho yo ho an intellectual pirates life for me.

You're not crazy. Just autistic. Probably.

Oh same on the internalized gay is bad. Growing up I got made fun of for anything that I did that could be remotely interpreted as gay. I didn't really accept myself being bi until my 30s because I felt this intense shame every time I felt anything towards men. I was constantly hiding my real self and so paranoid of anyone noticing something real about me in case they would start to put it together and expose me. I still haven't really gotten over those feelings completely. A lot of that is neurodivergent masking as well. Shit's complicated.

 

If there were no restrictions other than physics and you could have any body you want. Like four arms, elf ears, snake lower body, double vagina, whatever you want. I've been thinking about how I want to change my body a lot lately and it's got me wondering what people would want if they could really choose. Look like a specific celebrity? Be a real life anime girl? Be an amorphous shifting mass as free-form as thought? Be a giant space station? I just keep wondering what bodes we would choose if we really had the choice.

 

So excited to be on the road again.

 

I'm trying to find somewhere to store my sperm for fertility preservation before I start estrogen. Anyone got any recommendations in or near the bay area?

 

I just started HRT a couple weeks ago and I've noticed that my nose is the clearest it's been in my adult life. I always used to have some resistance when breathing through my nose and I had a perpetually runny nose, but basically the day after starting HRT it was much better and I even sound less nasally when I talk. I was just wondering if anyone else noticed something similar. I'm doing estradiol injections and oral progesterone.

 

I keep thinking about the experience of feeling body envy towards cis women. Since I cracked my egg I've started to notice I have two distinct sets of feelings towards cis women, which can sometimes overlap, one being romantic/sexual desire and the other being envy for their body and femininity. I think for a long time I conflated those feelings and thought I felt sexual desire towards women who really I just wanted to be, and at other yet more unfortunate times didn't recognize my sexual desire for someone as such due to the lack of envy. It's made me wonder how much of my sexual life and awakening has been colored by my desire to be the women I thought I just wanted to bone. Definitely some at least.

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