juergen

Hello friends.

as a kink positive transfem egg with self worth problems, a bad (addictive) coping strategy in dealing with these bad emotions emerged in recent years (since my youth actually).

And my intention in posting about my experience is that bad life situations, stress in the real life (of which people probably have plenty) make these coping strategies worse, because, like any addiction, the substance will not be enough and you need more of it.

It started with regular femdom humiliation until it went more into hypnosis stuff, planting powerful triggers to reinforce these self worth problems. (i have one specific content creator in mind who i wont mention for safety reasons. because people like i was will certainly be curious to research this content creator with the desire to fuel their own similar bad coping strategies.)

Then a bit later i found the "Bambi Files" which i now consider slightly abusive: these are conditioning files which are even more powerful and effective compared to the above mentioned content creator, and whose community makes it hard to practice it with proper consent: since you maybe have a rough description what a files does, but you have to listen to it since many don't have a script. Not to mention that many files dont have a "light" version, so it is hard to know how addictive a file is.

The amnesia triggers might seem interesting in a consensual kinky partnership, but if you do these alone, i think its risky.

Especially for my ADHD brain which curiously clicks to all links and listens to random stuff only noticing too late that this was a step in the wrong direction, now with a suggestion that the addiction is increasing.

And there is also explcit abuse mentioned in this article, where bambis had been - besides the physical abuse - conditioned to recruit other inexperienced bambis into a cult-like group.

And now notice that the bambi community has in one of its popular sites a cult playlist, whose description explicitly mentiones that the intent is to gaslight the bambi and conditioning her to recruit others.

So i infer the cult-like abuse mentioned in this article is not only this case but rather a structural problem, they are thriving. (And fyi, the female voice in the files is a text-to-speech generator, obfuscating that many content creators are male, probably with structural similar intentions to the james from the group.)

https://www.buzzfeednews.com/article/jessicalucas2/erotic-hypnosis-bambi-sleep