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I watched the movie of Remains of the Day and it squeezed my heart in quite a unique way

You've inspired me to get off the usual screens and finally get started on a book I've been meaning to read for a while - Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro. It's starting off really well! I'm going to go back to it after this comment, but...

I had a closer relationship to lower living standards growing up, still very much first world but things like your own patch of grass, the space to not live constantly surrounded by others, a relaxed way of living, wide open spaces and yes, having a car for many people, were all almost unattainable privileges. And just one generation removed my family came from a country that definitely had much less: I remember the constant power cuts, military checkpoints, curfews when I visited (and we were considered privileged back there, having migrated away from it all). Parents had their stories of lining up for rations, the bombings, the terror...

Yet I still often fall into the trap of the hedonistic treadmill and forget how absolutely, blinking, freaking lucky and rich I am to be where I am right now. It's easy to get caught up in how unaffordable housing is, etc, and it's not like those things shouldn't change, but holy shit most people in the world would still kill to be here in our places. We never, ever genuinely have to worry about starving... What a blessing.

And Peeler, you yourself have such a generous, creative, loving personality that is its own richness regardless of material wealth ☺️ the minis are blessed to have you as their mum indeed!

Beyoodiful. Lovely to see a big wetlands like that

I love her already.

6/10 after a very rocky start.

There was one awful scraggly one in a stupid location at an old sharehouse that I foolishly tried to pull out (failed) and then mow over several times, both when I first lived there ten years ago and then more recently about 4-5 years ago.

I'm pretty sure the bastard is still alive.

Hmm so I don't think I had the cold after all, I think I was going through a caffeine withdrawal - built up far too much of a tolerance and wasn't flushing it out of my system properly all these weeks, hence constantly feeling tired (and then trying to drink more to keep myself going).

After a full day of hell with the headaches, nausea and not getting out of bed, I feel heaps better - woke up clear-headed, without feeling lethargic (haven't felt that way in a while), naturally got out of bed at 8am, put away my dishes and having a light breakfast with a SMALL amount of coffee.

I can't wait to finish this thing so I can properly investigate dialling down my caffiene intake altogether, maybe switch back to green tea like I did years ago.

Man, I think I caught a bit of whatever's going around. No respiratory issues whatsoever, don't think I even have a fever but the headache came back with a vengeance and I've been so fatigued with so little appetite that I only got out of bed for the first time at 9:30 PM - yes, PM, nearly 24 hrs straight in bed - to pee (an unholy dark liquid) and eat and drink something. Feel full after a couple of bites although my stomach is making all the food noises. Managed to keep down dinner, took two Nurofen with an antacid, back in bed and I hope to HELL that I'll feel better tomorrow.

Ugh the blue skies and the unbeatable Swan River, wish I was on holiday there rn. Keep the pics coming

That was a really, really good massage - holy shit do my shoulders need a lot of work. Went fuck it and booked another short head/neck/shoulders massage for next week so they can work on it a bit more. I'm so glad I went for this, my body is a lot happier having been attended to and the masseuse was really lovely too so it felt just like a Good Thing in general.

Got blood test out of the way after that (also a really lovely gentleman) and then treated myself to a banh mi - must be my lucky day because I got six free baguette rolls as a bonus!! Breakfast sorted for the next few days 😋

Now I'm just enjoying a bit of Sun and naycha while it's still warm enough... Then time for psych stuff. Then I might grab some yoghurt on the way back because my gut is definitely a bit out of whack atm. It's a good day where I am being fantastic to myself. Yes.

Definitely felt like I was heading in the direction of falling sick but sort of self-generated as opposed to catching a bug. I'm not entirely surprised tbh, this whole thing has brought up a lot of old memories and ingrained bad habits etc. I can't wait to be free of this burden and move on with life 🙂

Amaranth seeds might be harder to harvest in quantity from home growing compared to leaves though. (I friggin love amaranth leaves)