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Am I doing it right?

I've been working on a small project to remote control (via ssh mostly) my qbittorrent client. It's going well and I've already taken care of the basic functions I set out to create.

pause all
resume all
set default parameters to all torrents
sort priority to mirror dl_limit
shutdown client

Obviously I'll add more.

Thought I'd stop by and ask if anyone knows of a similar project. I'd be open to sharing the code but for now just the question.

In 2s and 3s, 1s I'm still gold 3 for unknown reasons. Guess I'm just not consistent enough yet. Sometimes I drop as low as silver 2 in 1s which I don't understand at all.. but I'm done being upset. It's such a fun game.

Nothing else really. I'm just very proud of my ability to adapt and improve beyond gold. Back when I initially bought the game in 2016, I used to rage at every loss and I'm sure my blood pressure was thru the roof. I'd forcibly uninstall the game at the end of every play session.. yeah, super unhealthy.

So I quit for a few years, came back in 2023 having been regularly meditating, and talking openly to those friends who would listen about my struggles, and I'd listen to theirs. I talked out so many rage issues and found that my anxiety and potential autism would cause me to release directionless rage at innocent bystanders.

I brought that to an end. I'm not sure how good I actually am, I still regularly dominate matches at plat 2 so who knows, the sky is the limit!

Final note, 1v1 is the only game mode where my rank drops massively. But I don't mind, they're slowly teaching me techniques as I get owned and I try to copy them. Thanks smurfs :)

I have a healthy relationship to my emotional state now, and this allows me to enjoy and improve in RL in a way I never thought possible.

I realize this post may be silly, but it makes me happy to share.

I love RL!!

I found this Python script a few years ago, it is simple enough that a non-programmer could understand 90% of it. I just remembered it had been running as a scheduled task all this time when I thought I had lost some saves.

Thought I'd post it here in case anyone can use it. Minor things are hard coded but they are few and easy to edit.

https://github.com/nonbhoward/backup_factorio_saves/blob/main/run.py

Edit : I appreciate all the PoVs and I will reply to everyone. This is important to me. Just going to go rest a bit and I'll be back.

Edit : Leaving the self-insulting language in, but yeah.. Point taken, I should stop being so mean to myself. And to add another FYI, I've been on this codebase for about 3 months, which I probably should have mentioned.

I have no idea what is wrong with me. I get tasks, I work on them, they NEVER seem to close. Meanwhile everyone around me is left and right solving their issues. I reach out for a second opinion because I must just be stupid, and every time I reach out the person is never able to assist in any meaningful way.

It's like my tasks always have blockers that everyone around me seems perplexed by, I get a lot of, "Wow, that's crazy," or, "Yeah your job does seem to have a lot of unusual blockers."

I'm at the point where I'm in a daily meeting where I explain what I'm working on to a senior dev because obviously they noticed I'm a person on the team with sometimes zero points in a whole month. It's so discouraging to have to go to a daily meeting because apparently I'm stupid? The thing is, when I explain what I'm blocked by, every person has said, "Oh weird, this seems like a really confusing task." Or, "Damn I've never seen anything like that."

So obviously I look at other peoples' tasks.. what are they working on? And their tasks are SO simple and straightforward, yet I've NEVER had a task like that, all my tasks were opened years ago, remained open for months or years, then were assigned to me. And they're all fucky. Wth.

Tbh I'm running out of things to write because I don't want to justify it, because I feel like I should be doing better. What the hell is wrong with me?

I have wanted to change jobs for close to two years now.. but you've all interacted with recruiters.. they never help, and job search is impossible as a person with anxiety and possibly autism?

I love coding, I hate my coding environment.. Anyone else ever have this type of issue in programming?