The lighter side of ADHD
Every now and then I pull up a game I might want to play. Mod the hell out of it, sometimes even fixing old broken mods or writing my own. I spend ages learning all the details of how it all works and engage in the community, etc.
I never actually end up playing the game.
I do this with almost everything. Work hours building a spare pc with linux and make it do some cool stuff, never touch it again. Build a music studio and hardly ever record music because now I feel like there's no point xD
Do you have fun with the tinkering?
I do. I enjoy figuring out how it all works and then restructuring it to my exact specifications. But then the problem is 'solved' so my brain wants to focus on something else.
Even when I play games, I struggle to complete them. I play just enough to figure out the gameplay loop. The part where you've got all the mechanics and the game goes 'and repeat till the game is over'. I struggle to have the desire to do that part, because why? The puzzle is solved and the rest is simply execution.
That's me every time I try and open FalloutNV: "I don't like this minor thing" spends two months making a mod then puts the game down again for a year or two
Tbf the old game in question takes 30 minutes to load and crashes every hour.
I spent two weeks straight preparing a Travellwe campaign, populating the sector with 46 planets with distinct cultures and questlines. I did this with no breaks so the campaign could start early, but was so burnt out after that the campaign ended up being delayed by another two weeks
Yeah, and? Your point...? So I have a debilitating habit. So, what, my boss hasn't notice yet. In fact, it probably helps me at my job, maybe, kinda, actually no. Fuck you, I don't like this. Get out of my house!
Wow these are awesome!
Are you willing to share the rest? There's someone I know who watched the whole series and I'd love to casually start using more and more in conversation.
In particular, any referencing the ending?
This is my Tenor account. All Blacklist Gifs are there. First three episodes have been turned into GIFs. Or, at least, GIFs that I think that I can use. Working on some more episodes now as well as episodes of other shows. I'm just going episode by episode so far.
Awesome. Perfect
You see, there are risks of going on a tangent on every action, that's why it's so risky to accept "small" tasks. Who tells me I'm not going to start small and end on the 2nd case?
My brother was diagnosed with ADHD when he was a kid and I wasn't because when I was young we moved constantly and it was never noticed that I exhibited the same behaviours as his by teachers since I changed schools every 5 months or so.
As an adult he's medicated and functions well and I'm not and function well too, the key difference is I function amazingly if I have his tablets.
My biggest issue which is also a bonus is there are many days when im at work that I won't stop to eat or drink. Just work flat out on whatever I'm doing ( Crane technician) people think I'm super dedicated to my job, but unfortunately I just forgot to go to the bathroom or drink water and get myself all kinds of fucked up
But to be fair they are spectacular.
Me: " This game is too hard "
Also me, after failing to find mods: "guess I'll just spend a shitload of time manually editing python files or the like until I inevitably break something and then start over"
