Alice

joined 1 year ago
[–] Alice@beehaw.org 1 points 1 week ago

Been going to the gym whenever possible, not the solid routine I'd like, but I'm still enjoying it. Pruned some houseplants that went crazy after a VERY long depression. A few of them might bounce back, we'll see.

Also got a few works in progress going. They gave us flowers at work so I have one pressing under a book right now, and I'm trying to propagate the stem. Not confident, but I hate to waste a flower, so I'm trying. Also picked a bunch of succulent leaves up off the floor at work. Hopefully something grows 🤞

[–] Alice@beehaw.org 4 points 2 weeks ago

That's awesome, I'm glad you have people you can depend on.

If I'm being honest, my family is more like an anchor. None of them ever learned to help themselves and that still expect me to do it. I'm just going to try to change the part of my personality that wants a social life.

[–] Alice@beehaw.org 6 points 2 weeks ago (6 children)

Rough as usual. Overworked, underappreciated. I have a driving test coming up for a new job, but my current job won't give me the day off, and I don't want to quit until I've passed that test. I'll work it out, it's just stressing me out.

Multiple people online and in person have been unpleasant dicks to me when I honestly wasn't trying to do anything wrong and it kind of depresses me. I want a social life but I hate people.

[–] Alice@beehaw.org 13 points 2 weeks ago

I mean, I assume?

I found the bot promoted in a different Telegram channel dedicated to making and sharing AI-generated nonconsensual pornography which has about 50,000 members.

This isn't thought policing... First off, these are actions, but second, no one's policing it.

[–] Alice@beehaw.org 3 points 2 weeks ago

People still don't know what Mastodon is. I mentioned it recently and someone asked, "isn't it mostly white supremacists?"

[–] Alice@beehaw.org 6 points 2 weeks ago

Tell him they're ghosts, and the whole joke is that Mystery Inc. keeps finding random guys dressed as ghosts and somehow don't notice all the ghosts yelling right there

[–] Alice@beehaw.org 4 points 2 weeks ago (2 children)

Been planning on it, but shit just got complicated as I'm switching jobs, and I'll probably have to provide a vehicle if I want a healthy amount of hours. But I'm also NOT going to buy and modify a car before I'm through probation, that's madness.

So basically I may or may not get screwed by the vehicle tariffs, we'll see.

Other than that, I'm kind of playing it by ear. I'm already not a huge spender, but I eat well. I decided a long time ago that that's the last expense I'll cut, I love food too much. I'll get rid of everything else before I go back to living on ramen.

That philosophy is about to become unsustainable. I already know I'm going to have a give up lifting weights soon, so I don't get as hungry, I just don't know when.

[–] Alice@beehaw.org 1 points 2 weeks ago* (last edited 2 weeks ago)

Mostly just cleaning my house. I never really finished moving last summer and shits just thrown everywhere 😅 I finally got everything off the floor, threw it in a basket, and vacuumed a couple times. Now begins the process of finding homes for everything in the basket.

My cat sheds like crazy even with daily brushing, so the situation was dire

[–] Alice@beehaw.org 1 points 2 weeks ago

Stolen Netflix on my TV, 123anime.info on my phone browser. Totally legit. With a good adblocker, of course.

[–] Alice@beehaw.org 2 points 3 weeks ago (1 children)

Oh same. I've been trying to cut back on sweets but with Easter having the passed, someone's always got bringing a bowl of clearance chocolates to work or D&D night. Heaven help me if someone brings in cupcakes.

[–] Alice@beehaw.org 1 points 1 month ago

None at the moment. Hammer away at job application til I realize it's an hour after bedtime and I need to eat dinner.

 

A paper published Monday in Nature Medicine found that the tiny fragments of plastic are passing the blood-brain barrier and into human brains, and the amount of microplastics in the brain appears to be increasing over time. The concentration of microplastics in analyzed brains rose by about 50 percent from 2016 to 2024.

 

Genuinely can't figure out how other people develop active social lives. The most common advice I get is to look on Meetup, but I found pretty much one group and while I had fun, halfway through the event they started making fun of liberals for not having friends. I'm genderqueer so that ain't gonna work out. Everything else on Meetup is scientology garbage.

I go out and do things on my own and try to be open to people who approach me, but on the rare occasion someone wants to talk to me it's because they're horny and they've mistaken me for a straight woman. I can be out in the mud picking up litter and someone will strike up a conversation about the environment, something I'm interested in, and it turns out it's because they think I'm doing this to get the D.

I'm getting crazy bored. Does everyone just work a 9-5 and then go home alone? Except for when they have sex with the occasional random straight man??

 
 
 

I tried /r/suicidewatch on that other site, but even though I made it clear that I was looking for advice and encouragement, the only two replies I got were in agreement that it doesn't get better. 😐 /r/depression is even worse by the look of it.

Does anyone know of any good websites, or is it the nature of all of them that they just turn into a crabs-in-the-bucket nightmare? I'm trying to get better but it also gets isolating pretending I'm not depressed all the time.

 
 

Never done this before, turned out to be a lot of fun :)

 

I'm 30 and horrible at keeping friends. I don't know if it's the unschooling or the autism, but I'm told I come across as hostile when I think I'm being nice.

I know the basics. I make eye contact but not too much, I ask people about themselves and their interests to show I'm interested, I don't dominate conversations with myself and my own interests. I try to be a nice person people might want to keep around, too— I give money when someone's in a pinch, I remember birthdays, I help move, et cetera.

Eventually people either people tell me I'm being a dick in ways I never realized, or more likely, they just eventually stop messaging me back.

The one thing I'm sure I struggle with is body language. I've read a lot that you need to mirror the other person's body language, but I don't know how to do that. Especially since I normally meet people at work and we're usually pushing big carts around and moving products and I'm just not thinking about my body as something expressive, just practical.

I'm sure I have many more blind spots that I'm not even aware of.

So like... are there classes for this? Some kind of specialized therapy? I don't really want to try anymore unless I can stop being a dick

 
 
 

‘Family values’ bill is adopted despite being denounced by the president, rights groups and the European Union.

Kesaria Abramidze, a trans model, was murdered the day after the bill passed. Even if the president vetos it, this law already has a body count.

 
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