For me the commitment part was the issue. I'm still working on figuring out how to trick my brain into cooperating with commitments. Having a team that was looking forward to my suggestions and ready to rely on it ended up being the one thing that worked. But this is obviously not easily replicable.
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I tried that several times but it never worked out for various reasons. For me I really started growing once I was working and had a team that was happy I wanted to learn more and answer my questions.
I'm like that and one of my friends as well. We're both not diagnosed but strongly suspecting AD(H)D, and I'm also diagnosed with autism.
I can't count the times I started trying to learn programming and ended up quitting for that very reason - but every time I did I knew a little bit more. So I just tried to learn my way and next time I wouldn't need to look up asuch and got a little farther. But I also have the luck of having programmer friends who don't mind trying to answer my sometimes very unusual questions, and over the several attempts I've learned enough to be able to work in test automation.
If you have patient and encouraging people around you you'll eventually get there :) don't go for ui at first, look for console programs so you can get to things like conditions and loops quickly. That's where the meat is for me.
The thing alternates between showing the measured speed and a reaction to it - smiley if it's acceptable, something else if it's not. I don't remember RN what the bad reaction is (I'm not a driver) but in a 30 zone a smiley at 42 is misconfigured.
My logic was always, if == is equal, then for >= we replace one of the equal signs to denote that it doesn't have only be equal but can be both.
But that was probably also influenced by languages where == means the value is equal and === means value and type have to be equal for the comparison to be true. If you compare "5" and 5 in those languages, == will be true and === will be false, since one is a string and one is a number.
At the end of the day, those signs are arbitrary conventions. People agree on them meaning something in a specific context, and the same thing can mean different things in different contexts. A in English represents a different sound than A in Spanish, and sometimes even in other dialects of English. Thinking of out like that helped me to keep the conventions of different programming languages apart.
In Germany? :o
As a diagnosed German I can tell you not much changes, there's virtually no therapy for adult autistics. I understand why your doc said that.
Though there was one large benefit for me and it's that after we applied for disability the Arbeitsamt got much more lenient with me and was actually useful in helping me find a job.
In the end, if you can't let go, seek the diagnosis, if not, take from autistic communities whatever little tricks help you, discard what doesn't and call it a day. Much less trouble :)
I was wondering about that, there's a second band between Africa and Australia but nothing in the south Atlantic. What's up with that?
There's one thing in your post that I haven't seen you mention yet it's all over the place: depression.
I don't know anything about you but this post, and I'm not a professional, but from very painful personal experience I'm almost sure you're severely depressed, maybe even to the point where you need hospitalization.
Depression fucks with your head. It makes you not-do things you're looking forward to and you don't understand why. It makes you unable to see anything positive. You cannot get out of it without help after a certain point, and you cannot trust your own thoughts anymore.
These days, after years, I'm better. For me it's never going completely away, but I recognize patterns, I know how to break the spiraling (and most importantly, no one shames me for how I'm doing it anymore) and I can say " this sounds like depression speaking, let me do something else and return to this thought tmr and see how I feel."
But it took years of therapy and several months of hospitalization. If you're at the point where your outbreaks scare your family, maybe it's time to look into that.
Another thing: depression in men is critically underdiagnosed, because most docs look for physical reasons if a man comes to them with symptoms of depression. If you haven't been diagnosed yet, it may be that it didn't occur to your doc, maybe because you're masking well or because he's just not used to seeing men with depression.
However you go on, I wish you all the best. I hope that you can find a way, with or without meds, to live in peace with your brain.
My special interests are very special to me (ugh, what a terrible pun. Defo not intended!) and I reserve sharing them for people I trust. That alone is a reason for me to mask.
It's actually harder for me not to mask than it is to mask a lot of the time, even though my mask is far from perfect. But I'm "out" at work and it's fine if people realize I'm masking.
I think for me donning the mask is like donning armor to protect things I care about from a majorly uncaring world, and if I unmask around you it's a sign of trust.
Still relatively new to Lemmy and can't figure out RN how to dm you, but I am not in the US, so most likely we are not in the same country.
I can tell you broad strokes though - I got super lucky with my therapist at that time. Sadly he's retired now :( I was super exhausted, had gotten out of hospital and then diagnosis and at the same time (since in paper I looked like an easy candidate to find work for) the unemployment agency was hounding me. I told my therapist as an off-comment "I wish I didn't have to do shit for the rest of the year."
He said that can be arranged and I thought he was joking - it was October or something. Nope, he stalled and his practice became unreachable. All I could tell the unemployment agency was that I didn't hear back and I don't know what's going on until they got frustrated and backed off. Come new year, everything went back to normal and it went fast-ish. Took maybe a year in total? I think less, maybe roughly 9 months?
I didn't realize what happened until after the fact, but he bought me the time I needed to process things at that time.
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Similar here, except I suggested a course and they accepted and paid for it (Software Testing). The programming is what I enjoy and want to pursue.