the terms HSTS and AGP have melted my brain. whenever i feel any sort of attraction to women i think to myself "certified AGP moment" and then feel disgusted with myself
i used to be bi but i've psyop'd myself into being het
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joined 1 year ago
playing a game that i have multiple hundreds of hours in
finally don't restart my save and gets to late game content that i've never experienced
almost immediately gets overwhelmed and has to stop playing
why am I like this
this class is only offered every other spring so i would have to delay my graduation by a year to retake it
while this class counts towards my degree but isn't a required course so I don't need to retake it to graduate, it still tanks my gpa though
i desperately need to get diagnosed but that's going to take a while to actually start getting mental health help and it's going to be far too late for this class
how do I find a guy who’s okay with dating a trans woman, is not a chaser, and is not an egg? it’s never going to happen is it 
I legitimately might fail the final paper for one of my classes, it’s already late so 20% off but i haven’t even started it yet. im in complete burnout mode and i know not passing this class will fuck my future over but I don’t really care? i think I need a break from Uni, I need fucking therapy and medication, it’s another 10% off if I can’t get it done by midnight and I don’t see myself even being able to start
I have not, nor have I pre-transition
but it happens even for people who have a completely different style than me and who I do not want to look like (I don't mean they look bad just that they don't look how I want to look, different vibes)
I don't really know how to describe it, feeling attraction like that just gives me dysphoria in the same way that like looking at my face before shaving or looking at my shoulders does. It's just a source of dysphoria for me and idk how to stop it
Liking women makes me feel like a man, idk I just feel like my attraction is malebrained
i don't even know how I would identify anymore, so much shame and so much dysphoria has clouded whatever it is I actually feel
fuck my ability to do anything is just gone
I have done no work on that paper and can't force myself to start
i'm just completely out of motivation and nothing can keep me going
this is the last major thing I need to do and I'm going to fuck it up
oh shit oh shit we can turn it in late! It's 10% off per 12 hours but that's not the end of the world, I might just do it tomorrow morning lol, I'll start it tonight at least
I've got 7 hours to write a paper that I've had all semester to do, about to write the potemkin village of essays
Does anyone else wish that they were straight? I feel great guilt over any attraction to women that I feel, but I don't really like men
I go through periods of huge amounts of shame over who I am and just the other day I ended up taking all the pride stickers and buttons off of everything I have, I wish I could get over that, and I can for a time, but it always comes back around
that is very reddit trans