Beetle_O_Rourke

I left the country on suprise work orders 2 weeks in and smothered the connection I had with my friend turned partner in the crib.

Took three months of further anguish and very limited contact to rip the bandaid off.

I have learned nothing from this experience and am about to rebound.

What's up with youse?

I work a travel job where meals are covered, and on my first monthlong work order, napkin maths says I will have just under 10k at the end of it.

Coming from a life where I lived in overdraft and HEROES act was peak living, I have no real idea what to do with this much skrilla.

I use a budgeting app that autopulls from my acccounts, and those show that I spend about $1200 per month without rent expenses.

I aim to put about a third of this money inyo index funds, and do mutual aid where I can, but am wondering what are some things more experienced chapos can offer to take into consideration when budgeting.

Tried LMDE and bazzite nvidia, but I just could not for the life of me get Optimus gpu switching on my 7640u laptop from lenovo to play nice.

I am going all AMD for my next desktop, but I am frustrated and tired with

SOMEBODY CALL NINE-ONE-ONE

SHAWTY FIYA BURNIN' ON THE DANCE FLOOR

WHOOOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

How could anyone think fuckin' taco bell slop would be comparable to walking to your cousin Sergio's house?

I hope to buy a split mechanichal keyboard (Leaning towards the Sofle with Gateron Milky Yellows) with the remaining wiggle room. I already own a decent mouse.

An acid mirage of a person lived rent free in my head for more than a decade of my life.

We came close to dating a year ago, but I am glad that we did not. I have accepted that the idealized "person" that I fell in love with did not, will not, could not exist in the flesh.

The song "The Recipe" by SiR helped me realize that the situation was unhealthy on both of our parts the way I doted and excused every flaw, by showing how from the other side, how I felt wouldn't have even been a consideration in making their choices.

I'm in a position to afford talk therapy for the first time in my life, and this burns in my soul deeper than any of the shitty things I did while meth'd out, deeper than (who am I kidding, deeply entwined with) the lingering insecurities of a lifetime of parental abuse.

What I seek is reassurance from other jilted limerents on how you eventually got over it.