ConsistentAlgae

I’m very stubborn so I don’t quit things I start. I’ll keep trying - thank you for sharing your story with me and for your support. It means a ton.

I think for me it’s just I’ve done it so long, I’m semi successful, so my brain is like “why change? Look at what you’ve done if you change now, what if it all goes away?” And rationally I know that won’t happened but that’s that mid-west upbringing biting me in the ass.

I’m fortunate to have a lot of very supportive male friends and we all tell each other this as often as we can: you only fail if you stop trying. So long as you get up and attempt the work, you’re not failing, you’re learning. I’m hopeful I can keep that mindset and keep trying, and hope you can as well.

It’s not that I don’t feel emotions necessarily I just don’t know what to do with them. I was raised in a rural setting and so “be a man don’t cry” etc was much of my up bringing. I feel emotions I just don’t know where to put them other than shoving them down to be cut out with the cancer later or to blow up at the most inconvenient time possible.

It sucks. And I’m in therapy for this lol it’s supposed to be better! but a lot of it does come from this mindset that we don’t have emotions or are incapable of sharing them in a meaningful way. I’ve explained it a thousand times to people and only other guys have gotten it most of the time.

The gunpowder treason and plot. I know of no reason the gunpowder treason should ever be forgot.

Sorry can’t read it without finishing it…

In my experience as a veteran with PTSD - not really. The only difference I can tell between my PTSD and someone who has family trauma from my therapy group is veterans want to hide from it - I did for a long time. It took an immense amount of support and love from my family to finally seek out therapy, and even then I still have outbursts every now and then. They are fewer for sure but it’s something I’m going to be living with for the rest of my life.

It will take a lot of patience if you want to get involved with him, and even more support at times. I can’t speak for every veteran though we are all different and everyone’s experiences differ in ways.

Hope this helps.

Thank you - for a second I was like… what?

I think one on daisy chained IEDs would be interesting. Most people don’t know that a lot of the explosive material used was either left from Russia in the 80s or was UXO fired in the country by the US during the start of the war. I had the unfortunate luck of encountering 5 155 rounds daisy chained - lucky I was back far enough to only sustained minor injuries.

That or how the US would pay locals to do mine sweeps for us. They’d been living with it so long they could locate and disarm them extremely efficiently.

Very well detailed and put together! We coupled the Rhinos with jammers in most vehicles as well so remote detonation wouldn’t work. Very nicely written!

No joke. I still have mine from back in the day and I took notes on this shit and still have no idea what it’s about.

If you own it, you should be able to copy it for your enjoyment.

If it was or is critical to work, you should be able to copy it.

Licenses back when this all started were perpetual. I use it for the entirety of my life. So long as I breathe I have a license for it. Emulating that shouldn’t be illegal at all.

Compaq or Dell. Similar situation with microscopes. They required FireWire to work.