thankyou for sharing. this is so helpful to all of us, a harsh reminder of the reality of this illness. there by the grace of god go I, who I was, who I am and who I could be again. my condolences I'm going to call my dad. all the best my friend, msg if you need to talk I can give you my whatsapp.
cold and rainy down here, been sleeping in a cuddle puddle with border collie and dalmation, 93
low 90s hyped for triple digits. one day at a time. can't do 3 days at a time.
saw a glass of wine and stared at it for a bit, quite literally thought nothing of it. completely vacant. I understand it's deadly to me and most of my friends, not to others. one drink is enough to ruin my life. again. never again.
walked past the same glass again and thought, don't think anything don't think any... dammit. 91.
YOOOOOOOOOO haha congrats !!! 3 months here, 3 years there. wonder how long we've got collectively. apes together strong
level 90. resentment gone. deadly stuff, it's dangerous in my brain I can't go alone I need a flashlight. I didn't want to take my meds this morning, didn't want the clarity I just wanted to be numb and run from my problems. it's like I've done 30 years worth of processing in 2 days. life's getting lifey. the novelty has worn off and it feels like normal. into action.
rough day all round. tomorrow's almost always better.
thanks v much, turns out the resentment wasn't justified. I mistook ignorance for malice.
im tryna quit its hard
meds have got me sleeping 16hrs a day, frustrating as heck, can't even game just gotta lie there cause my eyes hurt. think I've figured it out, just doubled the strength of my coffees. yeehaw. 94 what a great year that was.