Lumelore

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[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 16 points 4 days ago (4 children)

Pedro's sister is trans and he seems to be quite supportive of her. It'd be weird for him to be lesbiphobic but not transphobic. I don't think I've ever even heard of someone that is.

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 7 points 6 days ago* (last edited 6 days ago) (3 children)

I tend to miss things people say if all I have is their voice, so I am definitely better at reading. If I am focusing on comprehending them it reduces my ability to remember what they are telling me, so I too do much better with written instructions.

I took 5 years of French in highschool and I could understand my teacher just fine. Then when I graduated and wanted to continue learning French I would listen to French videos in the background, but I realized I was missing a lot of things, so I went to rewind the video, and then suddenly noticed it was so much easier for me to understand them if I could lip read.

Then I started to remember how when I was kid, and my parents would have me call a relative for whatever reason, and sometimes I would just hear garbled english, and I'd be so nervous and not know what to do, so I'd just say "yeah" and hope that sufficed. This still happens to me, although not as much, but it's caused me to become phobic of phone calls.

Now that I've realized how crucial lip reading is for me to understand speech, I now use only resources where I can actually see the person speaking if I want to practice that.

(Also subtitles are awesome.)

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 3 points 6 days ago* (last edited 6 days ago) (2 children)

At this point I'm just frustrated about it. Most of my excess fat is on my stomach and I can't seem to make it go away no matter how much I exercise or diet. Idk if I could be doing more or if I have some condition making it more difficult.

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 4 points 6 days ago

100% some people are genuinely shitty people and their behavior would happen even if society wasn't misogynist, classist, etc.

My goal wasn't to alleviate them from responsiblity. I do not believe it is their fault for growing up in a society that is against them, but it is their fault for not thinking crtically and choosing to perpetuate that hate once they are an adult.

Also I was thinking of abuse on a societal level, not an individual level, but that does contribute. (I probably could have used a better word. I do agree that abuse implies individual rather than societal.) I find the fact that so much misogyny and other hate exists within the overton window to be repulsive. Trump said "grab her by the pussy," (plus a bunch of other terrible things) and got into the oval office not once, but twice, which shows that society has a major problem with finding hate acceptable. Why people find that hate acceptable I imagine varies between demographics.

I still do stand by my previous comment, which is my thoughts on why specifically women voted the way they did, although I agree it has room to be expanded on more.

I think a major part of it is that people simply aren't thinking things through enough. They should be questioning society's misogyny, racism, etc, but for some reason they choose to accept it as normal.

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 6 points 1 week ago (3 children)

Abuse towards women is unfortunately so normalized by society that I bet most of those women don't realize how much they have been manipulated since childhood to be against their own autonomy, especially if they grew up in a religious environment.

It's possible that women of minority demographics voted more blue because some realized how anti-(their specific minority) republicans are but, just like the white women, weren't put off by republicans' misogyny.

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 3 points 1 week ago

My first ever job was working as a cart pusher at a Walmart supercenter. I naïvely choose to work two long shifts in a row not realizing how much walking that is. Every shift would end with me having open blisters on my feet and I eventually just stopped showing up after a few months because I contracted cellulitis from having so many blisters.

On top of that management was very rude and unreasonable. Despite it being a supercenter, I was often the only person scheduled to work, especially on sundays, meaning I would have to deal with the after church crowd by myself. Usually I would show up to work and carts would be strewn all across the parking lot and none would be in the vestibules since no one was there to do carts until my shift started at 11.

Customers would yell at me to work faster and management would get upset with me since they were getting complaints too, even though it was their fault for having one person do a job that needs multiple people doing it.

Also some people would use the parking lot as a trash heap. People would come by and dump their broken junk that they couldn't put in their trash can in the parking lot instead of paying to dispose of it at an actual disposal site.

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 4 points 1 week ago

I make 'em look normal with one thing off. My current character is a breton with her eyes all the way big, all the way apart, and all the way down, but is otherwise normal.

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 3 points 1 week ago

Estrogen isn't a controlled substance so it's easier to get than testosterone. As far as I am aware DIY estrogen is a lot more common because of the legal risks associated with testosterone.

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 10 points 1 week ago (2 children)

If you want more booba

Boobs not Bombs


(Note: If you are a cis woman, taking more estrogen will not give you more booba, although it could possibly give you reproductive system cancer if your levels are too high)

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 12 points 2 weeks ago (1 children)

I'm not bipolar but I have had my own struggles with depression and suicidality in the past. I can tell you that all those negative thoughts you are having are lies, even if it is difficult to see that at the moment. I sincerely hope that you are able to see a therapist and get help because you do deserve to be alive and happy.

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 3 points 2 weeks ago

Mine talked about various contraceptive methods, STDs, and accidental/teen pregnancies. It did focus more on the pregnancy part than the STD part, but they also briefly talked about how condoms are still important even if you're gay, since they prevent STDs.

I have a cousin I went to highschool with. He grew up in the south, but he finished highschool with me in Minnesota, and he told me his sex ed curriculum down south consisted of a brief talk on how sex is bad and that it is important to eat vegetables. Even though he had health class credits from down south, the school made him take their health class and he was happy to find out it's much more comprehensive than the south.

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 6 points 2 weeks ago (1 children)

Most of the roundabouts near me have the crosswalks right up by the circle, so you'd have to either stop on top of the crosswalk, or stop with it in front of you. If you stopped with the crosswalk behind you, you'd be in the circle.

And I do look at the circle ahead of time and will go if it is clear, but if it isn't then I do stop, and it happens to take me longer to make a decision as to when I am good to go than most other people.

If I didn't live in freedumb land, I wouldn't drive, but driving is the only reliable option here.

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Sorry, this is pretty much just me venting, but it is related to me being trans.

Anyways, I got my first pair of women's glasses yesterday. I was very excited and euphoric, but I somehow managed to scratch them today while I was fiddling with the nose pads. Fortunately the eyeglass place has a warranty for lens scratches, but I unfortunately had to use it less than 24 hours after getting my glasses. They said they have never seen an adult scratch their glasses that fast...

I also have a hearing soon to get my legal sex changed however I also have jury duty. I had called the court a while back to see if I could reschedule and they basically said that it's my problem, not theirs, and now that it is getting close to time, I am freaking out because idk what I'm going to do if they call me in when I have my hearing.

On top of that, I also have midterms this week so I'm stressed out from that as well. I just drank the last of my alcohol, but unfortunately maladaptive coping mechanisms aren't actually that effective (Who would have thought).

 

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Idk if that dogshit executive order applies to birth certificates or if it's just passports and other federal identity documents. As far as I'm aware birth certificates are managed by the state and I live in a blue state (Minnesota), so I'm thinking maybe I could but idk.

I'm planning on using my passport that I got a few months ago as one of my supporting documents but I'm worried that it might get confiscated. (My passport has an F on it, my birth certificate currently has an M on it)

 

Sometimes I have days where I look in the mirror and think "damn I'm hot" and other days I think "damn I'm ugly" (because I think I look too much like my agab).

I'm trying to figure out what to do to feel better on those dysphoric days other than just caving in to food cravings or bed rotting.

I imagine other people here probably experience similar feelings. When you aren't feeling good it's easy to cave into unhealthy habits. I'm curious as to what others do if they are having a dysphoric day.

 

I'm thinking of taking my dosage of 6mg a day down to 4mg a day so I can stockpile 2mg each day in case of an emergency. Or maybe every other day to stockpile 1mg each day.

I'm worried though about it negatively affecting me mentally, but I also know that if I do run out and don't have a stockpile, it'll be much worse.

Or maybe I could ask my doctor to prescribe me extra so I can stockpile without reducing my dosage?

Anyways, what are your thoughts on doing this? I know Erin Reed recently put out an article which mentioned it being done (which is what inspired me to make this post).

 

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So I'm wondering if I might have klinefelter's (XXY chromosomes) or if I'm just very receptive to estrogen because the effects of HRT happened to me way faster than I've heard other people say it happened to them.

I've seen charts like these and I am a bit dubious of them because my timeline doesn't match up at all.

image of chart

I don't know if my experience is actually normal or not, but when I started estrogen about a little over a year ago, it only took a few days for me to notice my skin being softer, and then literally the next day I woke up with breast buds and about 2 to 3 weeks later I had noticeable breasts that were big enough that it was difficult for me to boymode at work. I'm pretty sure I got to Tanner stage 3 in like half the time that's expected.

From what I've heard from others is that they didn't get breast buds until at least 3 months in and that made me question why mine happened so quickly.

I've also always been pathetically weak and it's also always been difficult for me to gain muscle. Which makes me think I had low testosterone even before I started spiro. I remember when I had my 3 month follow up, my t was at 89 ng/dL and I remember my doctor commenting that that was lower than he expected, although I have zero idea if that is actually lower than normal for 3 months on 100mg spiro.

I'm curious if any of you also experienced a similar timeline to me, or if your timeline fits the charts that I've seen. I know my timeline is quite fast and that it might be hard to believe (idk if my experience is normal or not), but I swear it is my genuine experience with HRT.

 

As of a few days ago, I am now 1 year on HRT! I typically don't like posting pictures of myself, but I also wanted to make a transition timeline and share my progress, so here it is lol.

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Estrogen is amazing. I finally feel like my body is mine and something that I need and want to take care of. Sometimes, I randomly think about my gender and being a woman and it makes me so happy, but overall I don't really think about my gender as frequently as I used to years ago.

I also started progesterone last month and luckily I am one of the people that respond well to it. My overall mood has significantly improved since I started it, and it also helps me sleep a lot better. I am now waking up early in the morning feeling energized which is something I have not experienced in a very long time lol.

I've also been working on my voice as well. I did make a post here about 6 months ago where I asked for feedback on my voice (which was really breathy and did not sound good). I think I have improved quite a bit since then. I'd really appreciate your feedback on it if you would like to critique it.

My voice training progress (youtube link)

 

First one was in a marching band, second one was in an IKEA float.

 

 

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