alina

I just think they look so good, better than men where I live. And I mean the facial aesthetics and a few other things. I don't mean actors, but men I see in street polls or in english language learning apps, or in homemade porn. There are a lot of things I could say here, but I just want to say that I don't think it's good for me and I'm trying to get rid of it.

It starts from Lucifer's perspective as he falls from the sky, musing in a tired voice about his future fate and how tired and broken he is. Then the action takes place in the garden of eden, and then I don't remember, and I think the whole cartoon was from Lucifer's perspective. I don't think it was exactly a children's cartoon, as the art was very mature and aesthetically pleasing, perhaps black and white with lots of light tones, and looked like watercolors, although I'm not sure. The overall atmosphere was calm and melancholic. That's all I can say, I saw it when I was seven years old, and that little fragment still lives in my head :<

This is my case, I'm wondering if it's common

I asked a question on a forum about why a command wasn't working. They said I didn't have an interpreter installed on my computer and were making fun of me. I showed them that I had one installed and that wasn't the problem, but they continued to talk sarcastically to me without explaining anything. Only one of them suggested the cause of the problem, and he was right, so I thanked him. Then another guy said that if I couldn't figure it out myself, I should do something else and that he was tired of people like me. After that, I deleted my question, and now I'm not sure. And I don't think I want to ask for help ever again

I'm not sure I'll ever be able to, although I don't even dream of prosperous countries, i don't care about quality of life, I'd be happy to live as shitty or even worse than I do now, just to feel free and protected and have nothing to do with a regime that kills people and the people who support it. But I'm sure that if I did so, I would feel disgust and self-loathing , since it would be an escape from the consequences of my own weakness and inaction, even if there are no direct consequences other than living in this decaying hole. And I think any russian honest with themselves is of the same opinion. Their whining like "It's not my fault I was born in russia" when people from other countries rightly declare that they don't want them there is irritating and disgusting, and I don't know how anyone has the patience to deal with them. I don't know how fair my reasoning is, and whether it's simply due to my apathy or envy, although I think I've basically come to terms with my situation and don't have any big plans for my shitty little life. I'd like to hear someone else's point of view on this without pity or emotion.

I cried a few hours ago and my head and eyes still hurt, my hands are shaking a little, and I also feel dizzy..This doesn't usually happen, аnd now I'm worried (I just very like to cry)