I was not gonna post this. I scrolled back and did anyway.
It has been a defence mechanism after meeting too many toxic people. I shut up everywhere, never expressing emotions or opinions. Tired of getting called out for strange ideas or expressions.
Fuck it all. It destroyed 15 years of my life. Getting out of the cycle is not easy!
That sounds like a work hazard. Shouldn't there be a brake on the blade if the safety is broken?