lilypad

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[–] lilypad@hexbear.net 12 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago)

Thank you for your overtime cat-trans

-- depressed trans girl

[–] lilypad@hexbear.net 27 points 1 year ago

Been having a rough time of it lately.My brain doesnt work good; i cant fulfill the prerequisites for existence in this world. Im trying to find a job and housing, but it just doesnt work in my brain.

And how can i live with other people? "Hi potential roomie, i would love to live with you! Oh and btw i might get random intense mood swings, see things once in a while and then insist we have no standing water in the house cause thats how she gets in and I dont want to experience her right now, but wait an hour and everything will be fine again. etc. etc." like who tf wants to live with a crazy person whose only tangentially connected to reality?

And even beyond that, my brain doesnt work right. I know I have to do things, but i cant do them. Whether fun things or not, i think about them constantly, feeling terrible im not doing them, and still dont do them. I just dont function. I have housing until the end of march, but after that im not sure what will happen. I was confident I could find somewhere to live by then, but the people in my life are saying ive already failed at it, and tbh theyre not wrong. Im just not capable. It took me 1½ months to fix my social security and drivers license. It should have taken a week, max. Idk, im just kinda done trying. I try and I fail, if i dont try i fail, all roads lead to rome.

Anyway, idk how thats related to being trans, aside from that im trans.

Besides all that I have some friends who are nice, they keep me sane. Gonna hopefully expand my social circle a bit this week, but might crash out at the last second cause of the aforementioned brain not working right.

I hope everyone else is having a better time of things. Sorry for bringing everything down 😓

[–] lilypad@hexbear.net 2 points 1 year ago (1 children)

I dont have much to say about the question in the title, but i really appreciate the Tjen Folket article, its very interesting to read.

[–] lilypad@hexbear.net 10 points 1 year ago (2 children)

Hear me out, a distributed dating app, so that everything happens without needing a server.

Assume 1gb of free storage per device, distribute gzipped text-only profiles such that any given profile is constantly "on the network" (i.e. distributed via someone elses device if youre no longer connected, idk like distribute to 20 random devices, and then redistribute if the number of active devices drops below 5?), but have images hosted from your device so theyre only available if your device is currently connected. Have everyone set a "home location point" to avoid distributing via a device thats across an ocean or something.

Basically, by using the app you're contributing processing power to run the network. Idk ive never done or looked at anything like that before, but it sounded cool in my head. Plus text only profiles take so little space, you could store a lot of them in 1gb, especially if theyre like gzipped tarballs or something similar.

Messages could be peer to peer. If someone messages you or likes you or matches with you, it forwards that info to your device or stores it on one or more devices in order to forward it once youre back on the network.

Goal is to remove any profit motive from the app, so users instead of paying money pay with device processing power.

Ok random thought over now. Ive never done distributed systems before so its probably a pipe dream or something impractical.

[–] lilypad@hexbear.net 2 points 1 year ago

Oh nono no need to apologize! Spontenaity is important to have! stalin-heart

[–] lilypad@hexbear.net 2 points 1 year ago (2 children)

Ughhhh why do I always see these way to late to join :( gotta be even more online i guess

[–] lilypad@hexbear.net 8 points 1 year ago

2024 is gonna be a banger, I can feel it in my lobes.

[–] lilypad@hexbear.net 15 points 1 year ago (1 children)

Good thing someone developed a new type of woman that has fewer side effects. Many doctors still perscribe the old type of woman, but some will perscribe the new type if you ask nicely. cat-vibing

[–] lilypad@hexbear.net 9 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago) (1 children)

Im ~~not~~ a Smart Fucker™ but to me this is all in the purpose of HRT; one takes a medication for its effect(s). Effects besides the main or intended effect(s) are therefore side effects. So to me it depends on the philisophical view of HRT that the specific trans woman or transfemme person has. E.g. I view HRT as giving my body what it needs in a holistic manner. To me, the period symptoms are a part of that. A frustrating part to be sure (i just had a couple days of possible hypomania followed by some days of intense mood swings, and idk if its a mental health thing or not because it landed at the perfect point in my cycle), but a part nonetheless. But for someone who views it differently, they may very well see the period symptoms as side effects because they are undesireable and not their intent for the medication.

Hopefully one of those Smart Fuckers will chime in, Im curious what others think about this.

[–] lilypad@hexbear.net 9 points 1 year ago (3 children)

Do we know if those genes come from the mothers side or the fathers side (or just mix n match), genetically? Cause my mamas side has a bunch of fairly small breasted women, and my fathers side is the opposite. Really hoping its like male pattern baldness where it affects men and people producing DHT, but comes from the mothers side. Come on dad, do something actually helpful for once and give me giant titties

[–] lilypad@hexbear.net 6 points 1 year ago

:norway-cool:

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