Similar for me… I felt for my son from birth but not this life-changing wave of paternity that is often portrayed in media. Similar to OP, more like this is a little being that depends on me and I owe it to him and my partner to be responsible. Shit is hard, though.
When I really started connecting with him was when he started showing personality around 6 months, then even more so as he started getting language and mental faculties.
We were told in prenatal classes that on average babies cry about 2 hours/day, and that’s true around the world. Different cultures perceive it differently and thus feel like there’s more or less crying. Maybe this knowledge can help you to take a step back and look at the crying situation more objectively. Maybe not. It is the only way your little one knows to communicate the smallest discomfort right now, and everything bad is also literally the worst thing that has ever happened to them.
We had more like 8 hours of crying due to health challenges and bad advice, and that will shred your soul. If you’re consistently way above the 2 hour mark, do say to your support team. PM me if you want and I’ll share some more thoughts because our team was shit and we had to figure it out ourselves.

My German friends have also remarked on disappointing French teas, and that almost every infusion is based around verbena and chamomile. Even if it’s sold as something else on the front, that represents typically less than 30% of the actual ingredients and is more verbena plus something.
I’m guessing based on the “hay” description that you’re more into herbal teas. I’m mostly a fan of black teas and Kusmi and Damman are my go-to French brands. My partner is more into herbals and in over a decade never found a really good option.
My only advice is to stock up when in a place that has the teas you appreciate. I personally load up on fruit teas during trips to Germany or Austria.