Let me just break my habit of almost exclusively lurking on this site to say this:
I honestly understand how you feel, believe me, I've been there. I've had that feeling of self-hatred, of not being important (or at least assuming that I ain't), of being undeserving of love, affection or just help. Fuck all that. There will always be people that deserve attention more than you do, as there will always be people who suffer worse than you. That does not mean that anything you do or go through is invalid. That does not mean that you need to feel guilty when a community of, let's face it, mostly weirdos, cares about you. I do not know if this helps you, but this internet stranger values you. The number of days I've had in the last couple of months that have been significantly brightened by your memes (I do not care in the slightest of you just reposted them, that's how memes work) or silly voice recordings is staggering. Unfortunately, we are separated by thousands of miles and at least one ocean, or I would totally take you up on that hug.
All's well, that en(t/d)s well. Ich habe auch einen Moment gebraucht :)