You’re not alone.
From my personal experiences, helplessness is a very debilitating feeling. I have my own situation that I am currently struggling with that is leaving me feeling similarly to you: I am stuck and hurting and there is not a goddamn thing I can do about it other than survive and pray* that either some miracle* will happen and my problems will somehow resolve themselves, or I simply cease to exist**.
I digress. This is not about me. My apologies.
I just want to reiterate: you are not alone.
* pray, miracle: I am not a religious man, so take that with a grain of salt
** cease to exist: look up passive suicidal ideation