Mastema
Can you imagine the chaos/hilarity if they did this with the 380mm bombardment?
Oh... Would you look at that. My reading comprehension skills are ALSO unsafe...
Make sure to switch it to unsafe mode or it is really useless!
Mushrooms look great! Are those just button mushrooms cooked in the same thing as the egg marinade?
The Good Place
Feels good and makes me a better person.
This video with Dr. Ronda Patrick is about the best and most current deep-dive I'm aware of on caffeine without going and reading the research papers themselves (which she links in the show notes)
The Bastion OST by Darren Korb is amazing and introduced me to his other music, which is also great!
There are a few things that actually make this better, if you want it to get better. I don't know what your life situation is like, but under no circumstances should you go home after work and be alone. Go to a park and walk. Get a bike and ride. Join a boxing gym. Anything to be moving. Stay off your phone. They are basically unhappiness machines designed to make us want something other than what we have. Reach out to friends and family (I know I just said put your phone down, but communication is the one redeeming quality) And maybe most importantly, start some sort of therapy/meditation practice. I recommend IFS therapy. If you can't afford a therapist, there is a book called Self Therapy by Jay Earley that gets you 90% of the way there.
The realization that you will need to come to, which I can tell you now, but won't really mean anything until you are ready to hear it, is that you can't be "good" to be in another person's life until you can be "good" by yourself. You have to learn to be ok company for you, and be ok in a room with just your own thoughts, before it is really fair to ask another human being to be in there with you. Right now you are learning that you aren't ok without this person, or without some person. I'm learning the same thing now also, if it helps. Learning that is huge. Congratulations and condolences all at the same time. You have some work to do. You can do it, or you can not, but life doesn't get better until you start doing it.
I don't know what it is worth, but there is a random guy on the Internet who wants you to succeed and learn to be content with yourself. Once that happens, the connections you make with others will be genuine and much stronger.
DM me if you need anything at all, and I believe in you. The dark thoughts are not the truth. Your strength and kindness is the truth. Believe in that.
It is now added to my list!
I started Zhuang Zhou, but found that a confusing place to begin, so I got The Tao is Silent and the Ursula LeGuin translation of the Tao Te Ching, and I'm working my way through those.
For really low rep, high weight workouts, you basically want to extend the rest between sets until you can do the 4-7 reps again. In some cases you are doing 5 reps, waiting 3 to 5 minutes, and then doing another 5 reps.
Once you are up to rep counts like 12 or 15, you should be at about 80% of your 1rm. Maybe about 80% of your 5 rep weight. Finishing your higher rep sets shouldn't really be in question, as you are going for speed and power on those, rather than maximum strength.
To say that differently, low rep exercises should be close to failure because of the weight used, but you get through it by taking as long as you need. Higher rep workouts should be done with a weight you can definitely finish with, but should be done explosively.
Let me know if that doesn't help.