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Means testing is bullshit. Nobody is going out and using more healthcare for the heck of it. Just the opposite as most of us don't really want to go to a doctor or hospital. We have to. No one likes to take medication (barring addictions but that is another medical issue that needs medical care!). We have to.
it’s alright, everyone is going to get their wish and there will be one less broken trans person in the world once i work up the courage to end it. shit like this helps. just pushes me closer.
I don’t know you but I want you in the world. I’m sorry that you’re going through that.
i don't want to be here anymore. it's been 35 years of torture and torment and fascists are winning. i'm tired. life isn't precious, there's no meaning, so let me fucking end my own story.
Yeah, I can’t pretend to know what you’re going through. We want you around though, that I can say for sure.
Don’t let the fascists decide your destiny, directly or indirectly.
some of us experience negative events routinely. people call it "bad luck" but that implies some kind of superstition. i don't have bad luck. however, it appears i statistically experience negative outcomes far more frequently than people i personally know. it has to happen to somebody. our outcomes exist on a gradient of two probable states; positive or negative, so when you physically "do something" you become your own tool of measurement by interacting with your surrounding environment. you then "record" the outcome observed in our universe through your action: positive or negative. see? no luck. it's just math and shit.
my point is, i am what i am going to describe as quantum unlucky. i don't understand it and it just is what it is, but i am fucking cursed by this universe to experience the shittiest shit as a dumb American. i am beyond exhausted. i cannot convince myself to stay here any longer. i merely exist because i am too afraid to end it. it isn't necessarily the fascists that would do me in, because i have had a life of misery before i became aware of their existence, but they certainly have made everything more bleak.
Do you have some community around you? The US looks like a sad place to be any kind of minority right now. I’m certain there are many others feeling the same things as you. You’re not alone.
not really, unfortunately. i live in a small-sized city (50-60k residents) near two bigger ones, so while we have a decent amount of resources there isn’t much specific to what i need. and i don’t have many local friends either. i do live with my partner and his mother, so i am fortunate there.
I don't think everyone is wishing that. Most people don't know you. Sux there will be one less person voting for compassion for all the future folk going through something like this. One less person marching. I will say there are folks that very much want these things but not everyone and I don't even think most people but we don't have a direct democracy. Its one vote per dollar rather than one vote per person unfortunately since citizens united.
marching isn't going to do anything, and neither are protests or peaceful demonstrations. we should be far beyond that as a people. i believe that is our only true way forward. i don't see it happening.
I understand the feeling. We have been going in the wrong direction for a long time. I don't know ultimately what the protests will do but I will do it as long as I can and would rather have done it in the world we have now than not do it. We have not lost the democracy yet but it is a dark time for freedom .
respectfully, i see it differently than you. regardless of the fact that we've never had direct democracy, erosions to our democratic elections have been building for decades upon decades. the power imbalance created by the obscenely wealthy has established an oligarchy that has successfully infiltrated all facets of our government and private tech sector. i hate sounding alarmist but not enough people are talking about Peter Thiel and while yes, Trump is a primary threat, I think Peter Thiel might be the Biblical devil and i'm an atheist.
oh I get that, but its like climate change. Im going to do what I can till the end.
Do you have any monetary support links? If so and you'd like to share them then we'll share them around and even personally help you as best we can. If you don't or don't want to then we understand.
Also fuck means testing and capitalism, people deserve to live for free.
i am extremely hesitant to share any support links out of fear i will be viewed suspiciously. i am hyper aware of how my behaviors are seen and interpreted. but i appreciate it, truly.
We understand. Would you be willing to DM them to us?
Edit: Even if it's just us who help in the end, we would like to. But again we understand if that's not a thing you would like to do.
i’ll be honest that makes me nervous but yeah i would be willing.
We can talk about that more over DMs if you want but if not then we understand. Feel free to DM us whenever you'd like.
I'm sorry that sucks :(
Fuck this world, man... I'm so sorry you're being put through this nightmare and I wish you only peace, if nothing else can be done. Hell is too good a place for the demons scuttling through DC.
I'm not going to claim I know anything about you. I currently have indigent healthcare -- full coverage, no deductible -- which is really fucking weird in Texas, but I digress.
The one-time cost of moving to where you'll be able to get that $500/month erased is likely taken care of in half a year.
i have $0 money saved and struggle to keep money past five days of each paycheck. i am supporting myself and my partner on one income in the non-profit sector (meaning i'm even more underpaid than usual). i can't move at the moment, but even if i could, the job i have right now is ideal and i would prefer to keep it. i have struggled my entire life to find a job i could be stable in, so this is exceptionally rare for me.
The job you're in doesn't let you support yourself to a standard where you can prolong your life. No matter how much you love it, it's literally killing you.
the thing is, it does let me support myself. i cannot hold down a job. i have severe mental illness that has interfered for my almost twenty year work history and being able to take care of myself has proved difficult without financial stability. this job, somehow, has what i need to be able to function. i’ve never had this before. i can’t let this one go. i just got it a few months ago.
while the medication i’m on will prevent my life from being shortened by my disease, it isn’t a death sentence when i go off it. it feels like i am trading 15-25 years of my life for being able to work. some would call that reasonable and “a part of life.”
Your severe mental illness might qualify you for disability! That could help with getting the medication covered.
unfortunately i have already went through filing for federal disability. i could not meet their requirements.
I stayed in my field more than a decade too long. You think supporting a family is tough at a nonprofit? Try doing it on copyeditor wages! With zero stability!
In your situation two different events are taking place. The first, losing healthcare coverage, is not of your own doing. The second, your reaction to this fact, is something over which you have agency. It is within your ability to choose how you respond.
If you are sick or injured, it is your responsibility to get yourself to the doctor or hospital. This is no different but merely more difficult. Have you called your doctor's office for advice on your situation? Have you called manufacturers of this medication to ask if they have a reduced cost option? Have you looked online for cheaper sources from abroad?
The worst-case scenario is that you and your partner have to sell all your possessions, buy some one-way tickets and move to a different state.
i have done all i can to reduce the cost, yes. this is the lowest i can go as i am buying directly from the manufacturer who is already offering a reduced cost.
Would you be able to work as a server in a restaurant on your days off from your non-profit work? The tips can be really good in the nicer ones.
Have you explained your situation to your boss? Maybe you could get a raise?