I mean to make it easier I guess I would just tell myself I am convinced that Jesus existed. So I believe in him. But not "in Him" capital H.
Or you could imagine yourself cheering Jesus on and hoping he will do well in sports ball for the Jerusalem league. I could see him as a solid basketball player with the magical powers and all.
Nothing wrong with lying there obviously.
I didnβt have that but my girlfriend in high school did.
My parents neglected me enough they made those wackos look sort of OK.
I feel like I've supported a lot of therapists monetarily π π€£