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WEBRINGS:
BIGGER AND MORE PRIDEFUL THAN EVER BEFORE 
Bigger and more prideful than ever before 
Looking in the mirror and realising my hips got wider, again, at some point. Fucking rad, I look better every time I check. Smh not surprised I was claimed by a goth wife so quickly 
In honor of this new account, I just wanted to say that being a girl is great. That is all π³οΈββ§οΈ
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Well .ml has some downsides but not having access to emojis is something I'm used to as a Jerboa user.
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Yes this is the same person lol
crushing on two cute trans girls at the same time and knowing that both are fine with that feels so good omg
instantly like this comment to become my wife
Welcome to the trans polycule
Like this reply to instantly become my mommy
Like this reply to instantly pet my head
genuinely not sure if traumatic or just funny
Thinking about that one time in sunday school when I was like 5 and I donβt even remember the reason why he asked this but the teacher asked the boys in the class if they would want to be a girl. I thought about it and decided that sounded pretty nice so I raised my hand and then every one turned and stared at me 
Five year old me told the class she would push the button
It is interesting how little other people know about how bodies work with hrt. One cis girl I talked with just assumed that the boobs of transmascs would just disappear by themselves, for example. I knew more when I was an egg, I guess that just shows that cis-ppl don't research hrt that much.
I knew nothing about it until about 2 years before cracking. Honestly, practically didn't know it existed.
I had cis friends ask me if estrogen is what changed my voice lol
My GP asked me the same when I first told her I was doing DIY hormones. Incredibly gender affirming, but shows that even medical practicioners can be pretty clueless about it.
I know women can be shitty and all, but its really suspicious that the only people that are awful that I interact with are men 
Women mostly suck when they're looking to affirm their place in the patriarchy (liberal feminism)
I do my online shopping using an account that has the name that I like (Rania), and it feels so nice being called using it by the sellers in Arabic, when they ask for delivery address I give them my dead name and the drop off location and I tell them "Oh this is my cousin he'll pick up my package instead of me because I don't want to go to that drop off location" because they require I.D confirmation.
Thinking about these pictures of me I discovered a few months ago
It was me at like age 6 in a long, flowing purple dress obviously just having lots of fun wearing it and moving around in it
I think my parents put me in it cuz they thought it was hilarious (cuz I was AMAB and in the "wrong" clothing) but I guess I was completely oblivious to that and just liked wearing it :3
Completely forgot about this until I found those pics lol
I only started seriously thinking about gender stuff until I joined Hexbear a few years ago (many such cases 
) but maybe that experience had more of an effect than I can directly remember
I guess I'm still mostly male-presenting irl still (not really out of anything than it's "what's expected" of me) and I only just started telling people close to me irl that I wanna go by they/them pronouns but I think I want to try presenting more neutrally in general. I don't really know how though... I have the most boring generic nerd fashion sense too lol
And I ended up writing way more than I intended lol
I got told that my voice is pretty 
If society wasn't so bad I'd take E and get laser.
Society: You can be anything you want to be. Live life to the fullest!
Me: transes my gender to experience both pubertys
Society: STOP IT! NOT LIKE THAT!
Me: 
"You have to wait 10 days before sending your bitcoin to someone else"
Fuck you just let me buy my hrt i will murder you. I hate crypto.
I injected 1 mg more E than usual yesterday and now everything makes me happy cry 
Voice training question:
How do you find voice models to emulate? All of the trans voice training women have these really cute, clear, beautiful femme voices, but it's really not at all what I want.
I hardly want to increase my pitch at all, really. Just gotta hone in on that resonance. It would be easier if I had a model tho
sadposting
god i fucking hate being single and i hate how i can never get an ounce of sympathy for that feeling either. i used to really crave the idea of being in a relationship back in high school but that's because i was trying to experience femininity through someone else and didn't have the emotions to understand that at the time. but now at the age of [too fuckin old to have zero romantic experience], it just fucking hurts feeling how badly i crave any romantic experience and going on E is only making my feelings more pronounced, and dating isn't really an option for me right now because i'm not really at the point to where i feel like i can be out to total strangers so i just boymode through public life right now
but that's because i was trying to experience femininity through someone else and didn't have the emotions to understand that at the time
I'm so fucking sorry to the girls I crushed on in high school...
"If you could press a button that would turn you into a girl..."
"No, I want to transition"
Lately, every time I shave I want to cry because I can't get rid of the shadow. This means I'm shaving less. This means I'm dressing up less. This means bad gender feelings.
I'm trying to schedule my first laser session within a few weeks, but I need to get another procedure first, and insurance is dragging its fucking feet and fighting me as usual. Why the fuck do I even give them money every month. Their one job is to pay for shit when I need it.
7 hours in, and we have 90 comments?
Call the shot, hexbears. We're looking to break 600 this week 
Ugh I missed all of you, where the hell else am I supposed to liveblog my thoughts???
Health anxiety peaking for sure. I have convinced myself I have cancer.
Cw Discussion of medical issues, genitals
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So I have genital warts. I think they might be spreading. Today I look at the underside of my penis and like a quarter of the skin has some strange growth on it... Horrifying. Is this some kind of cancer? I felt some pain and tightness before I even noticed this thing.
Weird side effects though is like "what if I have to get my penis cut off... Oh I'll just get free bottom surgery. That's kinda exciting??". Weird thoughts. This is surely just anxiety though
How do people handle names with job applications? In the past I've just used my legal/dead name but now I'm using my chosen name on top and adding a note on my resume of my legal name and that I'm trans. It's a little awkward and I'm worried about discrimination, but idk how best to approach it.
For context I've mostly been working blue coller in warehouses or doing data entry or light technical repair type stuff, and I'm applying in blue areas in the US.
came out to a friend the other day and we played Stardew Valley together and she said my name and oh wow it feels so nice when people call me a girl name
I've gotten very far into my physical transition since last summer, and recently I've made some more progress with getting my parents to understand this whole trans thing. But everything else in my life has just gotten worse, sadly.
Rant about personal struggles, transphobia and loneliness
I feel like I'm never going to get a job, I'm struggling to stay motivated for anything thanks to my ADHD, I've grown very distant with the few friends I have, and I have no idea how I'm gonna come out to my extended family. The isolation I feel from all of this is really starting to take a toll on me. There's also fact that my brother is a techbro chud that thinks trans people are all just mentally ill. Wish I could cut him out of my life, but that's difficult to do when he still lives with my parents, who I very much care about and want to stay in contact with. This shit sucks 
Despite all of this I feel hopeful about my future. Gonna try to join a local queer org soon, see if I can't get to know more trans people that way. Also looking into getting therapy, as well as trying out a different ADHD medication since ritalin isn't doing anything for me.
Jesyus fucjing cnhrist I almost girl fainted in my girl bathroom just now my right ear is fucjikgn girl ringing shit
breast talk
Sometimes I love my breasts and sometimes I hate them. I wonder what taking T will do to these feelings. I donβt really want to lose them right now but I also want to pass as man. Weird?
